It's true when they say things like "You should be contented with what you have. Not everyone can find true love."
But they don't know how it feels like when you keep giving and have nothing in return.
And then some people would be saying "When you love a person, give and don't expect anything in return."
All I can say to that is "Fuck you."
You weren't there. Not at all. When I need a shoulder to lean on, a body to hug. You don't know how it feels like being me. You said that you appreciate the things that I've done, the sacrifices I'd made, but you don't know exactly what I'd done and what the sacrifices are.
And it hurts when you said that you understand me.
Cos' you don't.I can't feel it. I can't feel the love you said. I can't feel the care that you claimed you'd shown. I can't feel it all. I don't even remember our last date. It seemed so long ago.
You asked me to wait a little longer for you to have time for me. That's what I had been doing all along. To wait and wait and wait.. Yet it's just disappointments after disappointments. I'm not complaining. It's what I tell you everytime we quarrel. It's a sad thing I have to bring this up again and again. Nothing just goes through that head of yours.
I'm not asking for branded. I'm not asking for diamonds and pearls. I'm not even asking for a nice dress which I laid my eyes on for so long. I'm just asking for a little of your precious time. Is that too much that I'm asking for?
And I can't even get angry everytime you pushed back your time with me just for your friends? Or when you had stupid excuses like you're tired when I'm the one who goes over to find you and walk home everytime I do in the middle of the night freaking myself out? I'm never your first priority, never once. There will always be something which is more important than me. Including your beauty sleep.
I have my limits too.Where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you.
Like you don't appreciate all that I do.
You gotta show me that you want me to stay.
Don't let your pride get in.
The way, for something we worked so hard.
Just don't throw it away.
I'd been trying to make you see that everything
You need is right here with me.
But I can't see what I need there with you.Sometimes I feel better when I am alone.
I keeping myself hanging on that string. I don't wanna fall.
Cos' if I do, this relationship would go down too.
But why am I the only one struggling hard?
I don't see you here with me.
I don't like this. Not at all.
I'm tired.
Physically and emotionally.
You were never,
never here.
#lovefio
Shut up.