Since I'd been back from Malaysia, it's swimming, swimming and more swimming with HM earrrrrrly in the morning every alternate days. When I say early, I meant EARLY. 7.30in the morning! Isn't that early enough?? I had to wake up like 6.45 a.m. lah!

Swimming didn't seem very much like a help to reduce those accumulated fats. Rather, we got more hungry after it and went to hunt for more food. And, not to mention, got ourselves blacken-ed despite the amount of suntan lotion we applied beforehand.
I swear that bottle's gonna finish in 3 days.


But I somehow like the contrast of my skin colours after the swim. But I cannot go into that pool with the blazing sun anymore before I turn charcoal. Damn.




Right, fetched Baby from the airport on Friday. He's back from Thailand at last! That week seemed to last forever! So glad it's over now. Hee.

Guess!

Baby bought me this Guess bag at the taxfree area.
Not the latest design or whatever, but it's special (:
Thanks Baby. I like it very much.



Went over to Baby's house on Saturday with HM after swimming and library. Damn tiring, I tell you.


FHM.





Some party at Kevin's yesterday and we got pretty high, yes, all of us. Theme - Mismatch. Didn't wear anything really mismatching because I figured that I wouldn't be able to go home in that state. Chivas with Greentea sucked while Chivas with Coke was the best.

Denver, high-ing.

Cherie and I.

Blushing red after the alcohol and "partied" the night away. Left with half-drunken JunYuan & JunWei, Shawn & Cherie, Daryl and YiKai.

Cherie's beautiful arm behind me~ -.-


It was great. Thanks, guys.



New Year. Right. Meeting Baby and his friends later. I outta go get prepared now..
Have a wonderful 2008, people!
Make realistic wishes! :D
They'll come true.

#lovefio
True love's kiss.

Something's missing, darn.
I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. It's just not right.


I need a little reassurance from someone.

Shit.

#lovefio
Emotions.

Cool. Did some genuine shopping. K-ed. Manicured. Yay.
I'm contented.

Yes, easily please. What more can you ask for when you're at Malaysia??
Santa Claus, perhaps? Mm..





Sweet messages from lovely people for the christmas greetings.
A very merry christmas to all of you too (:



And a simple call from you just changed my Christmas Day (:
In a positive way.
This love is getting stronger without me knowing, alright.






Again, Merry X'mas, everyone (:
May the Lord bless you.

#lovefio
HOHOHO.

Blogging from Malaysia. Finally I got my hands on the Internet. Urm, not literally though. Imagine people, imagine. You don't know the days without a pathetic computer by your side..

Arrived at Penang airport just the right time while Baby called. So glad to hear his voice again. Hee. The past few days were just books, breakfast, books, lunch, books, dinner, books and supper. Yes, I'm kinda obssessed with the books HM and I had borrowed from the library a week ago. Call me a gig, whatever. Heh.

Baby called after work too. Very touched indeed. It's nice to hear his voice before going to bed (:

But he's at Thailand now, damn. Means lesser calls and SMSes. But it's okay (I guess), it's only another six more days till I see him again :D Hee.



Penang was alright. Ate and shopped. Shopped! I shopped! Yay me.

At KL now and life's gonna be better here. No more mosquitoes to feed my blood to and no more stupid motorcycles roaring in the middle of the night. Peace and quiet. Yes, just everything I need to SLEEEEP.

Hopefully there'll be more shopping for me to do here. Or I'll die of boredom.




I still love Theodore (:
But nobody here seems to appreciate him... ):

Ah, different worlds. Four more days till I go back to MY own world (: With my lovely friends, of course. Hee..







Okay, something random. (HM said she wants to blog about it but hasn't, so I decided to blog first. Hope you don't mind, babe!)

(Something HM found on CLEO)
What Your Dreams Say About You

You dream that you're falling:
Falling is an indication of insecurity and anxiety. You may be feeling overwhelmed by some situation in your waking life. Such dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation.

At work: You may be feeling apprehensive at a new job, especially if your colleagues all seem highly competent and competitive. These fears are largely unfounded. Just be your usual confident self - you'll learn the ropes in no time.

In love: You and your significant other may be facing communication problems if you're both afraid of confrontation. You may feel helpless and be unsure of how to resolve your issues but don't fret - sit him down for an honest heart-to-heart chat instead.

You dream about animals:
Dreaming about animals is uaull an indication you're concerned with personal survival and that of your loved ones. You may be a slightly defensive individual because you're always fearful that someone is out to get you.

At work: You tend to keep to yourself as you don't want to get too close to your colleagues and sometimes worry that they're out to sabotage you. You might be a conscientious worker but it won't do you any harm to let your guard down at work sometimes - sharing ideas can promote creativity and team bonding.

In love: You yearn to be loved but don't want to get hurt. You have problems opening up and withdraw emotionally even if you're close to someone. This may drive him away in the long run. Opening up to him will facilitate communication. After all, you know he loves you, so why would he delibrately hurt you?

You dream about strangers:
If the stranger is of the opposite sex, he probably has attributes opposite of yours. These dreams help us understand ourselves, as we all have traits we try to hide.

At work: You may feel hypocritical pretending to be someone you're not at first. This, however, may not be such a bad thing in the long run.

In love: You put his needs before yours and suppress any negative feelings. If you dream about someone who always speaks her mind, try doing that more - you don't deserve to be trodden upon.

You dream about celebrities:
Dreaming about a celebrity odten reveals a fantasy for friendship or romance. These dreams may also show that you feel like you're on par with that celebrity. Alternatively, they could mean that you have a yearning for fame and fortune, and are symbolic of a deeply ambitious nature.

At work: You have a high level of self-esteem and believe you're up to any task thrown your way. But be careful not to neglect your loved ones and always remember those who've helped you rise to the top. You will be a highly successful individual but only if you keep your feel firmly on the ground at all times.

In love: You're extremely idealistic and a giving lover. However, your high expectations of your man may cause him to feel anxious about meeting them. Try not to sweat the small stuff or it will wreck your relationship in the long run.

You dream about flying:
Dreams where you are soaring over the landscape often mean that you feel in control of your life. But you may also experience dreams where you have difficulty remaining in the air. Obstacles in your dream may be manifestations of actual barriers in your waking life.

At work: You're a confident individual who's assured of her talents and abilities. However, you may have the occasional bout of insecurity. Identify the obstacles that make you feel afraid and deal with them head- on - you'll find there was nothing to worry about in the first place!

In love: You don't let the little things in your relationship get to you. You forgive and forget easily and are confident that you'll be one of those rare couples who will always be happy together. You may feel insecure at times but usually get oevr it by talking things through with your partner.

You dream in black and white:
You follow your heart and while this works out most times, consider your options rationally and do not make rash decisions.

At work: You've made good calls on tough decisions but other may find you inflexible and you may rub them the wrong way. Try letting them express their creativity occasionally.

In love: To avoid major clashes, your partner has to have the dofter personality. He admires your honesty but you may have unknowingly hurt him before - always be careful not to take him for granted.

Enjoy (:

#lovefio
Home, home.

I'm off to Malaysia again tonight! Man, and I'm going to miss Baby so, so much!

Not coming back till the 26th. And Baby's going off to Thailand on the 22nd till the 28th. Awwwwww...... Torture, yes. VERY, VERY torturing.



Anyways, library with HM yesterday before her very troublesome boss called and said that she has to go down for a job interview at Bugis Street at 4 p.m. Accompanied her there and met one of her friends, Alex, aftermath.





Ate and Alex's friend sent us home in his PINK van. It's the kind of van which has seats at the back, not those with boxes and stuffs and which we would find ourselves rolling about whenever the driver turns the steering wheel. Heh.


While waiting for Baby to come home from work (:






X'mas X'mas X'mas. Don't forget my presents, people! :D

#lovefio
I'll miss you.

AHHHHHH~ CUTE!!!!
I LOVE THEODORE!

#lovefio
Chipmunks craze~

To: Mr Ostrich
You're happy with her now, I can see.
I wish the both of you the best (: & yes, from my heart.

I wasn't sure, honestly. A little surprised at the news, but it's ok though.
I should have known that this day would come.
I should have seen it coming a long time ago.

I'm not missing, I'm not sad.
Not feeling a bit of misery at all.
Perhaps it's just that I hadn't expect it to be now.
Though I know, it's a sooner or later kinda thing.

I'm ok, really.
You've finally found the happiness in your life.
But forgive me for not wishing you in person, maybe I haven't found the courage to do so.

I'll always remember, and I hope you would too.
The things we'd been through, the words you'd said, the promises you'd given.
They aren't important anymore, but I'll always remember them.

I know you love her. Like how I loved you, perhaps.
I'm glad that you're happy with her now, and I'm happy with my own life.
With my love by my side too.

Guess we can't even remain as friends in the end, eh?
But I'd rather that this is the ending.
Something I'll never regret - letting you go that night you wanted to.
All the best (:

#lovefio
Best of luck.

I had wanted to blog about this a few months back, but couldn't find the courage to. Now I guess it doesn't mean as much anymore, thus here it is. I felt exactly the words were put.

A little time ago, we said goodbye.
But my tears still ain't dry.
Every hour, every minute you're in my head.
Whether I'm in school, or laying in my bed.
I didn't treat you right
Everyday we've had a fight.
I had to know everything you did
I didn't treat you well, I admit...
But there are still things that I can't forget
And a lot of things that I regret...
So much things I could have done
I wish I still was the one...
You love another girl now
And I know it's really over, but somehow
I still have a little faith in us.
My head doesn't, but my heart does.
I never loved somebody so much in my whole life...
I even dreamt about being your wife...
If you'll give me the chance
I really will make it up to you...
It took time, but now I've realized how much
I'm missing you.

Yes, hun. I'm still dreaming of you.

#lovefio
Love kills.

UT for Enterprise Skills II tomorrow and I'm found browsing through online shopping sprees instead of studying 6th Presentations. I'm dead, I know. It's not my fault those stupid PowerPoint slides were made so boring.

Yes, a sudden urge to get a bloody Gucci wallet for myself. Sudden craze, I should say. But well, I'm still that poor girl you people know - forever not saving up and forever broke. Great.

X'mas' coming soon and I really've got no idea where to squeeze so much money out from to get presents for so many people.

Again, I'm dead.




AH, let's forget about the worries and concentrate on happier things.
Baby's going back to school (maybe). It's a good thing, right? No? Mm..

Which means that he's got more time for me now, right? No still? Gosh.. I really don't know to be happy for him or what. Nobody likes school.

Ah. Another worry. I'm going to sleep before I blow. Nights, people.

#lovefio
Troubles accumulating.

First thing I thought of when I woke up this morning:
I love Fabian (:



& I really do.

#lovefio
Love me too.

Then suddenly.. it all seemed so vague.. so far away.


A few days ago, we felt like there's a new hope in our lives.
Suddenly, we lost it all. The happiness and the joy.


Not a single soul can understand how I feel, even if they'd been through the same thing. No one, at all. No matter how I cry, how I beg, how I scream.. nobody would ever feel the same as I do. I can describe it using a million words, cry a ton of tears or beg a thousand times. But trust me, nobody would ever understand.

I'm not blaming. I'm not blaming anyone if they don't know that kind of feeling. It's better that you don't, really. I pray that none of you would have to feel this pain.


It's heartbreaking,
really heartbreaking.





My heart tears apart everytime I think of it. But it's impossible not to think. Why? Nobody will understand too.

It's worse than a quarrel. It's worse than a break up. It's worse than having your parents accuse you of being a thief. It's worse than falling apart with all of your friends, and realising that you're the only one left alone in this world. I feel worse. Worse than all of these.


But I know of one person who's feeling the same as me, or maybe just slightly better than me - Baby. He's heartbrokened too, I know. Why didn't we stick to the choice we chose? Why do we have to listen to the other people? They don't have any rights to decide our fate. Yes, I blame myself for every single thing.


It's painful, so painful. The pain's from the heart. It's just not fair.



Regrets. This is the first time I've done something which I'll regret. And I'm going to regret a lifetime. "But there's nothing else you can do about it, stop thinking about it, move on." are some of the response. True, there's nothing else that I can do about it, it's gone forever. Just like that.

Again, nobody will ever understand this feeling.






We won't forget, never. It'll forever be planted in our brains. Yes, for a lifetime. But I want us to get over this. It's gonna difficult, but I have you and you've got me.
& I wanna hold onto you for the rest of my life, Baby, really.






Suddenly, spirits. I'd like to talk to them.
No, wait. Not them. Just one.
Just the one I miss so much,
the one who had once been so, so close to me.

#lovefio
We'll miss you, badly.