Miss me, people! Genting tomorrow with Baby, yes! Gonna be off for three days (till Friday) and I know we're so going to enjoy ourselves!

Nothing to worry about at all (except for the fact that we're going to stay in the hotel with lots of suicidal and murder cases). All we're going to worry about is how to divide and manage our time to have fun, fun, FUN!

Nice, clean fun, people. Stop your wild imaginations -.-

My first trip out of the country without my parents, or rather, without any adults. And it's with Baby! Sure there'll be confusions going around cos' we're not experienced. Hopefully we wouldn't get lost. Hehe.

But still, I'm bloody hell excited! Man!

I promised Ivy I'll bring her the bumper cars and ferris wheel back. And that I'll get Zachary that roller coaster. Oh they were so happy to hear that, man. Not even considering how I can actually bring them back -.- Sometimes I really wonder if he's really my brother =X

But DNA report states that he IS my brother. Just that perhaps he didn't get my share of sliiiiiiggggghhhhht intelligence :D

Alright, whatever it is, just wait for my return, peeps. I'll be back with more photos (: (hopefully). PRAY!

A REALLY BIG "SORRY" TO BEL DARLING AND SUKU DEAR.
Sorry babes, for not being able to join you guys on Sunday. I'll make it up to the both of you, I promise. So Sorry...

#lovefio
Genting, genting, genting!

Let me scream.
#lovefio
Serendipity.

David Sides.

Ne-yo "Because of you" by David Sides.

He's good, I tell you. He's fucking good! Omg I love him, man!

He plays other songs too. Like Rihana's "Umbrella", Ciara's "Like a boy" and Nickleback's "Far away". On the piano! Now just how good is that?? Very! If you ask me.

Aight, was at work today and it got really boring. So I spent the whole day watching DVD after DVD. Tried my best to serve those who walked into Frontage but they left after one round around the shop. Some left before they could barely touch the price tag. Pathetic, yes.

Boredom kills.

Imperfections.

Take me away.

And who else would I be thinking except for... You.

I would smile everyday if I can.

Portraits.


If only life's like a film.

Got a picture of David and Alan.
Shh, they still didn't know they were caught on cam =X

Francis wanted to come find me after work but I told him not to. Guess it's best to be on my own for some time now. I need some fresh air.

Don't put your hopes too high, Fiona. Remember what you've learnt. As long as you don't expect anything, there wouldn't be any disappointments. But, why do I still feel those tears welling up in my eyes now? Now that.. I don't expect anything more.

Or do I? Do I actually still expect something more? Something that wouldn't disappoint me. But it just did, didn't it? *Sigh*

What am I putting my hopes on now? I thought it wouldn't hurt. I thought, that it was just part and parcel of life, and that I'll get through it easily. But no, it isn't as easy as it seems.

Carlsberg

Bottoms up.

Well, look on the bright side. Absense makes the hearts grow fonder, doesn't it? However, that only applies to some lucky people. Can I be one of those lucky bitches too? For once? Hmm.

Right from the start.

Guess I need some mind therapy session. My mind's in a mess now. Need to get my priorities right. But what are they, really? Love, money, studies, family, friends. How can I put them altogether so as to not show favouritism? How can I neglect any of them? I'm no materialistic bitch, I know. And I cannot be one. It's just not right.

Pull through it. All these misery will go soon. It's not like I've lost everything. I've not lost everything. Or anything, for that matter. It's just the work of the Devil, putting me through disappointments after disappointments. But the rain will go away as soon as you smile.

And with a little tip of the toes, you'll feel that you're another inch nearer to the Sun.

Make my life work the way I want it.

#lovefio
I love you, love.

Had fun with Bestie that Monday night (: Yeah, it's been some time since we had such fun together.

Ten bucks! OMG! :DDD

It was a snapshot -.-

Run with me.

Yes, I look dumb -.-

Bugis Cafe.

Ah, me xDD

I swear those nuggets were BRILLIANT!

CHEEEEESE PEOPLE!

Stand by me.

Made history.

Part of my world.

Come on over.

Us.

Girls just want to have fun.

Step in.

& bring me away, please.

Let me be one of your dreams.

At the alley.

Est.Fio.

This drama queen.

Nothing so perfect.

Unglam moment.

Behind that door.

Hold me close, break the chill.

Raise the heartbeat.

What more can I say?
We're the best of friends (:

It's not all about the pictures we took, but more of the fun we had.

Yes, we've been through quite a lot with each other, I should say. And there have been times when we cannot tolerate each other's nonsensical behaviours - my unreasonable attitude and horrible moodswings, her selfish-ness and wild imagination.

It's funny how we actually ended up as Best Friends. We didn't quite like each other in the beginning when we just knew each other. Not much conflicts, still friends, yet we weren't as close.

Perhaps it was only until we were promoted to the same Secondary Three class that we finally became so close. We can stop talking for three weeks (or a month) for no reasons (not that we were quarrelling whatsoever) and still talk like normal best friends afterwards. We never run out of topics. For this five years.


And we're still best friends till now (:

To Esther:
I've never told you this, but I'm really proud of what you are today. Why care so much about what some bird-brain monkeys think about when you have so many people by your side loving and doting you? They're just not worth your time. Whatever it is, Best Friends till the end (: just stop going too crazy recently! You know what I mean........ Haha.

#lovefio
Till the end.

In class now and I'm dead bored. Man, I miss my ex class. W45L. They can make every lunch break much fun than this. I'm left rotting and dying here. OMG, save me.

So many things has been happening these few days. I swear I'm all worn out. It's so tiring and all, sometimes I just feel like giving up. But how can I? It's not time yet. Hopefully, I see something worthy to look forward to. Hopefully I would. Hopefully.. I would be happier one day.

If only there's ever that day.

I'll be your girl, now and always.

Look over here.

Would I be a little happier these two days before you go..?

I'll hold on for as long as I can, I promise.

我学会了: 只要没有期望, 就不会失望.

#lovefio
No more Mr.NiceGuy.

Screwed my Sunday real bad. Darn, why does it always have to be Sundays?

Met Samuel (I call him the perfume man) before work yesterday and he passed me the new Coco Madamoiselle Chanel. The one Keira Knightley was modelling for. Man, that fragrance. I love it to bits! And the bottle's quite pretty. It's worth the money, seriously.

What's more, it's pink! :D

I never liked Anna Sui's perfume. Any of them. Don't ask me why, I don't know either. The smell's either too strong or too sweet. Heh.

Right, enough about perfumes. I'm going gaga again.

I seriously don't know what's wrong with me today. Fine, shall blog again soon. I don't even know what's the point of this post. Damn.

#lovefio
Moodswings, man.

Yes, heavily photoshopped! Haha. Well, not exactly photoshopped, more like heavily EDITED! Yeah, that's the one!

Shine on me.
Yes, I'll demolish that wall, give you the trust & entrust you with my heart.

#lovefio
Don't go.

周惠 - 不想让你知道

忽然不想让你知道
在我心中
你多重要
既然你要自由
你就得到
让你永远都记得我好

忽然不想让你知道
你的爱我已经戒不掉
就让思念淹没
我不想逃
反正你将永远不知道

今夜星光多美好
适合用寂寞去品调
我们曾用爱互相依靠
付出多少不用计较

想一个人多美好
就算只剩记忆可参考
被爱放逐到天涯海角
我的思念你不用都知道

直到有天你我年老
回忆随着白发风中闪耀
至少我清清楚楚知道
你若想起我会微笑

Thanks, Ivy (: You know me so well.
Thank you for everything.

And you too. Thank you for everything.

#lovefio
Friends Forever.

It okay to cry - once in a while.
But why can't I stop? Help me, someone, anyone. Stop this madness, please.

I'm not happy at all, no.

It's all coming back, vividly.

#lovefio
Cheer me up.

Can I really say things I'm dying to say? And not end up straining this relationship?

Why am I not feeling the way I'm suppose to feel? Why this feeling instead? Why this... Misery..?
Yes, what happened to the "take me as I am" Fiona? I'm finding her back. I want her back.

I changed too much. Too, too much. But have I done the right thing? Lead me back to how I was before, someone, please.

Allow me to love you the way I want to. I don't want any restrictions. All of these are killing me, so very slowly.

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.
.

Hang in there, babe. Memories are what is left of you and him, and there's really nothing you can do about it. Let go, though I know there's so much you cannot put down still. But one day, you will eventually find the right one.

#lovefio
He's not missing you.

Another Sunday wasted. Damn.

Off to bed. Bye peeps. Hope that I'll be in a better mood tomorrow.

Smile every morning (: SMILE.
Just force it even if you don't feel like it. You'll feel a lot better.



Don't look at me like that. I'm no different from you.
But then again, maybe I want to be different after all.

#lovefio
Tainted.

Back home. Home sweet home. Guess I do love home afterall (: Well, who wouldn't? When you have a home like mine.

A Sunday. Goodbye, people. I'm going to sleep like a log.


Sticks and stones might break my bones, but words can shatter the soul.

Careful with your words now, they might kill.

#lovefio
Drown me.

Take this test, people. Quite true (:
http://www.mathsking.net/test/lovetest/

#lovefio
No longer waiting.

I'm thinking too much, I'm thinking too much.. Just how long am I suppose to carry on lying to myself? Everything isn't as complicating as I think they are, my friends are telling me so. Should I listen? Just to feel a lot happier than I am now?

Yes, there's nothing more that I could expect. Till now, why haven't I learnt anything at all? I was taught so much. Yes. How could I have forgotten?

I'll remember them all. From having a much too high expectations on guys to trust. There's no way I can expect anything much now, not at this age though.

I'll never forget those words 'Don't expect too much from me'. How could I have forgotten it? It sunk deep into my mind a few months back and it has been there ever since.

Who am I to expect so much in return? Just cos I think that I've done a lot? Oh wake up, Fiona. Not everyone is as appreciative as you think they are. Don't dream on.

Well, perhaps what I was asking for isn't that much after all. A little effort and sincerity - is this too much? Too much for you to take? Too much for you to handle?

Maybe I should learn from the past and never repeat the same mistake again. Who are you to give me so much? So much that I don't even think I deserve now. Inferior complex, yes. And this sucks.

#lovefio
Unappreciated.

Happy belated Birthday, Ivy! :D

Celebrated her birthday by accompanying her to Bugis. Manicured our nails and I treated her to that as part of a birthday present from me (: Walked around while we decided to wait for Siying to come.

Neither Siying nor I prepared a present for Ivy yet (I'm sorry, babe). But we know of this necklace she likes, so we bought it when she wasn't noticing and surprised her when we gave it to her. Hope you like it, girl (:

Had dinner at Makan Sutra aftermath. The food there's still as good as ever! :D

Really enjoyed ourselves. Don't know when's the next time we can actually go out together like that anymore but I'm sure the three of us will never forget this day we had together (: Take care, babes. You guys rocks!

Feeling kinda down now. Maybe it's the weather. Rainy days always make me emo. Or maybe.. It's just me.

I shan't talk anymore. Nothing I want is coming my way. Not even the slightest of all things. I had enough of waiting and waiting and waiting. I'm not that sort who waits for shit. Nah-uh.
I've got my own life to live.

I'm staying strong. For as long as I can.

You ought to face up to it now, darling. You're nothing to him anymore. Cheer up, don't frown. You still have your friends here with you.
Perhaps that's all you'll ever need (:


#lovefio
We love you.

Went back to TPSS for Teachers' Day. People have changed so much (in both good and bad ways)! While some still stayed the same. The teachers didn't change much. Still printing and printing more worksheets for the classes, according to Ms Kaur - our very humourous Social Studies & Geography teacher back then. She never fails to make the class laugh with her facial expressions :D

Saw so many of those I haven't seen for a long long time. And I must admit, I do miss them! And I couldn't even recognise some of them! Oh see what've the society done to us! Haha.

Accompanied Denver and SernWen to Storm aftermath to get their hair cut. And oh my God! Kason Kiu's there~ Stunning! He's still as hot alright!

SernWen sorta had enough of me after awhile cos' I was practically repeating the same thing over and over again, "Oh my God! Kason Kiu's SO DAMN HANDSOME LAAAAA!" Yea, that kinda pissed him off. Hee..

But you can't blame someone from looking that irresistably hot! And no way can you blame the people who thinks so too! :D People, I confess, he is HOT.

Had Mcdonald's (yes, my favourite still) afterwards. Walked round and round TM like we can walk round it with our eyes closed. I swear I know that building inside out, outside in.

Arcade with the rest and that place really took up quite a lot of our time. But it's okay, cos I was waiting for Baby. Suping was so sweet to walk me to the interchange and waited for the damn bus with me. Told her quite a lot of things about myself now, and she shared some of hers with me too. Well, what can I say? That's the strong bond between friends (:

Maybe to know that you only love me now is more than enough, I shouldn't ask for more.
What more can I actually ask for, really?
Perhaps no more heartbreaks? Yeah, I hope so.

.
.
.

You're nothing more than friends now. Let him go darling, let him go.
& I promise you that you'll see a better tomorrow.

#lovefio
Don't cry.