Tell me I'm a failure if I really am one, don't beat around the bush.

I think I deserve better than to be compared with other girls. No matter how similar we seem, we're totally different. And I like this difference in us. Take it or leave it.

I may not treat you like how they did, or like how you want it to be, but I'll give you my best. It's the little things you did for me that I appreciate, try doing the same too, if you ever see the little things I did for you too. Then this love would seem more beautiful.

Maybe it's this ego that I refuse to put down. I still have my own pride. But with that, I'd still do my best to be a good girlfriend - for you, for us.

Try to understand, please.

#lovefio
Nonsense

Class chalet yesterday. Had lotsa fun for the last time together as a class. Though not everyone was there, but we still enjoyed ourselves.

It'll be rather painful to see us seperated into different classes next semester. We know we'll miss one another so, so much - be it the happy, the sad or the angry moments we had with one another, they'll all be remembered. W45L Semester 1' 2007, we're the best!

& it's two months and counting.
I love you, Baby (:
You're so special to me.

#lovefio
Happy 2nd month.

Move on, he moved on without you.

#lovefio
Don't worry, babe.

"If you see me
walking on the road
with someone else
its not because i like his company;
its because you weren't brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me
talking about him all the time,
it's not because he pleases me;
it's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.

If you feel me
falling in love with someone new,
it's not because i love him;
but because you weren't there
to catch me fall.

If you feel lost,
i too am nowhere;
i too don't know where the road is going.

are we gonna cross each others' path
or just completely turn around?

Will we just let go
of what we had
or go to the place
where love is bound.

Don't let me walk with him;
it's you i wanna walk with.

Don't let me talk of him;
it's you i wanna talk with.

Don't let me fall for him,
it's you i wanna fall in love with."

Got this from Yu Tian's blog again. So true, ain't it? So true.

Think about it. But maybe you wouldn't understand, cos you're not me. You'll never understand me, or the things I do, the things I did - for you, for us.

#lovefio
Hear me deep.

This is seriously, crap -.-

What the hell.. Birds don't sleep in Fiona -.- Of course they don't!! -.- But kinda funny la. Go try out if you're as bored as I am.

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Im a Devil......???? OMG.

Got these from Yu Tian's blog and find it pretty interesting. It's just to brighten some of our boring lives. Ah yes, I'm hell bored.

#lovefio
Live with me.

Ben's chalet today! Happy Birthday Benny Boy!! :D (Ok, that's not what we usually call him, just something I thought of suddenly, hee..)

Me, Ros, SY & Sharon

Ivy & SY with Ben's flowers.

HAHA.

Our mess.

Ivy.



Gaying. Ben's friends.
(Couldn't remember their names, though =x)

Had lotsa fun there at the chalet. Ate quite a lot and I can feel that lump of oil in my body slowly taking over my blood. Right, nonsense. Fine.

Class chalet on the 28th & 29th! :D More pics coming up, hopefully. Hee..

#lovefio
Happy Birthday, Ben!

Tell me which to trust? My head or my heart? Which one would lead me to the answer I'm looking for? While which would lead me astray? I have so many questions going on up there. Anyone who has the answers to that?

I wish I didn't have to care. I wish I didn't have so much to worry about whenever I wanna get something done. I wish I wouldn't have to think for others when I know that they wouldn't do the same too. Why should I? How can I?

My head is telling my heart what to do now, and I don't like it. I don't like it at all. Was it a mistake? Would anyone understand? Would what I did improve our relationship? Would it make a difference to it - in a good way?

It may not seem to be a very big shot for anyone, anyone else. But it is to me. All the things so close to me seems so far away now. And I did it cos I hope things would get better. Will it..?
Tell me it's all worth it.

Because I'm not them, I don't know you well.
Because I'm just that petty, so you had a hard time.
Because it's this fear, this fear you'll never feel.
Because perhaps you would never understand how it feels like being me.
You'll never, never know.

I'm not them. Neither would I wanna be them. I'm stronger than I really am, I know that.
And that's the way it's going to be.

Don't crumble Fiona, nothing can bring you down.

#lovefio
Let fate decide.

Some things I spent on today.

(Sorry for the horrible photo quality. Now you know how poor I am, it'll be so nice of you to buy me a Sony digital cam :D)

Start of hols, today. Yipee!

Went to meet Baby when I finally woke up after the second time he called me. Can't blame. School made me so tired =X

Baby had to go for some birthday and I decided to go get my colour contact lenses (Romantic Violet) and my manicure (also purple) done at Tampines. No, I didn't actually want them to match THAT well that's why I chose both of the same colour. Sudden urge of liking of purple, don't ask me why.

I'm so broke nowadays that I have difficulty choosing to buy the Za blemish gel or mist. They all look just as good! And aww, it's for the sake of my skin. Some jerks must have something to do with this! Breakouts! A girl's ultimate nightmare! AH!

Couldn't decide, so I bought both in the end. Didn't cost a lot cos it was on promotion. Go get it girls, before those virus come attack you next! I'm a victim, I know ):

Ah, back to saving up for my next shopping trip. Meeting Suku tomorrow for swimming. It's been decades since I last touch the swimming pool water. I know it's gonna feel great (:

Mm, it's like the whole of W45L is going to miss one another so, so much. I tried not to think of it cos I know I'll miss the class quite a lot too. But it's like everyone's literally talking about it and I just can't seem to ignore it. I know I'll miss this class loads too! The happy and the sad times we had as a class (with the facis, of course).

Shayen.

Siying.

Raimi.
Bobby! (His real name is Denson btw)
Aisyah.
Ben.
Ivy. (She's mad, I swear)
Just look at that blessed face! :D Yes, it's blessed!
Jessalyn.
Nic.
Sokky.
Shy Sharil!
MeiHan Debbie.
Shahida.
Rosalind.

Faci Joshua.


And to think that I actually said that there's a problem with the motivation thing cos it's not motivating me to go to school at all. But no, all the answers were there all along. I just didn't see it. It was W45L which kept me going on and honestly, I regret it now not cherishing those moments. However, I know that we won't forget one another, at least not that easily. Rock on, W45L' 2007 - we're The Class.



Computing & Mathematics team!
Things we do.
Babes.

Enterprise skills.
Love ya all!

Ah yes, that's my butt -.-
Switch to the dark side..

You're the reason (:


#lovefio
I love W45L

KTV with Esther, Denver and Daryl at Bedok yesterday and yeah, we had fun - some crazy fun, that is.


Couldn't stop screaming. Haha. Like some bitch, yeah. It's been quite a while since the last time I saw Denver and Daryl (not Esther though, I see her almost everyday -.-) already, and it's great to be able to hang out again! :D Still as mad as ever, them.


Hopefully some pictures of us going craaaaaaazy would be up in Esther's blog soon. Was busy losing my insanity there that I totally forgot about taking photos. And don't remind me, it's been like ages since I last took a pic when I'm with my friends. Heh heh..

Yay, hols have officially started and I'm going to take this time to really RELAX~ But how can you when you don't have much cash?? Urgh.. And working once a week isn't helping much other than to kill time outta my boring life.

Well, I just remember that I can actually spend my precious time with Baby instead. But ah, heck -.- Guess work's just another way to at least earn some money (for an excuse to bluff myself).

Geez.. I seriously need an easier way to make money. This slow cash is killing me.

To Martin:
I still have not find another way to mail you my replies. Mm, and I hope you're still there when I finally find a way to. Hope that you're doing fine and to hear from you soon again (:

I hope you see this.
Keep in touch (:

#lovefio
Inferior complex

Ah, holiday's here! Jump RP, jump!

Right, holiday's suppose to begin officially on the 24th of August but my self-proclaimed hols starts tomorrow! And it's KTV for Esther and I. Gotta leave Baby for a day, but I'll be missing you love!

Cuts and bruises have been surfacing on my skin all over my body and I seriously don't know where I got them from. Maybe from the violent fights Baby and I had. But no, it ain't those really violent-violent fights, not those 'you slap me I punch you' kinda thing; and don't think too far, people. It just ain't what you think it is. Ah, you guys wouldn't understand, why do I even bother blogging about this. Just don't think too much -.-

Haha lax, I'm kidding. I know my readers are some really understanding folks.

And you've patiently waited for my update. Though not as frequent as the older posts from my old blog anymore, cos school is seriously wasting so much of me precious time, but I'm glad you guys stayed (: Yay.

Bought my colour contacts and I'm damn happy about it. Freshkon's Warm Hazel and Romantic Violet. Bought their Misty Grey before and damn, I'm freaking in love with that colour now. Might get back that colour when I'm a little richer :D It only costs 20 bucks! Somewhere along Tampines Interchange - Soong Choon Optics Connection. It's darn cheap can!

Something random:
Ben



Ah yes, me :D

Seriously, the school should really get a new piano. Or send someone to tune that bloody thing. Some of the keys are out of tune -.- And no, it's not my skill. Haha.

Yes, and another love of mine - art.

But instead of back to the drawings on those scary tattoos and about gangsterism, I'm burying myself in the sketches of the human brain - most of the time, complaining. And I must admit, it somehow is A LITTTTTTLLLLLLE difficult for a great artist like me. Hehe.

I'm so excited about the KTV later laaaaaaa! I'm going to sing my lungs out! Till Singapore welcomes winter! Woohoo!

Miss me? Well, here's a picture to remind you all how my face looks like (: And quit guessing and asking yourselves if you see me outside - yes, I'm Fiona! :D Come over and say hi lah!


I just realized, my tagboard's not up! Hopefully I'll get it done soon (:

#lovefio
Come what may

Part of a fool - Juwita Suwito

I've been there before
And I Just can't let go
The memories and pain of the hurt I know
Now deep in the night
And there's passion inside
Dare I follow my heart

An innocent smile
Then a walk in the night
There its dinner at home served with candle light
And it's has been quite a while
Since I felt good inside
Dare I follow my heart

Do I feel something special inside of you?
Do I know what you really think of me?

And the raindrops keep falling into my heart
And I just can't deny what feels so right
Do I let myself go and feel the rain?
Or should I play with caution and refrain?
Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool

I know what's in store
Though I can't say much more
A chance worth the taking has open its doors
And I can't say I love you
And I can't say I don't
But I do wish I knew

Do I feel something special inside of you?
Do I know what you really think of me?

And the raindrops keep falling into my heart
And I just can't deny what feels so right
Do I let myself go and feel the rain?
Or should I play with caution and refrain?
Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool

Whatever I do when it comes to you
I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool

Blogged the lyrics of this song in my old blog and found out that the lyrics actually don't match. Haha. Duh it's really difficult to find so I listened and type down the lyrics on my own previously. But, clever me. Found the goddam lyrics finally. Yay :D

Nice song, go look for it, people. For those who hasn't found it. You won't regret (:

#lovefio
Part of a fool

At times when things had gone bad, or from bad to worse, we stop and start questioning ourselves "what have I done wrong?".

Well, perhaps you didn't do anything wrong, but only to expect a little too much from others, whom cannot meet your requirement and thus, you tend to end up in disappointments after disappointments.

Maybe one day I'll understand. What is to be asked for, and what is to be asked for in return.
Yes, it's a hell lot of difference.

Am I not good enough..?

#lovefio
Treat me nice

YES YES YES, people! I finally transfered my skin from my old blog to this! Can't believe it took me MONTHS to do so, but yea I got it up and I'm dead happy about it! :D

Miss my face, eh people? Now there's a big one printed right smack infront of your eyes and under your nose! Perhaps that'll give this great mind some inspiration and allow me to write like before. Yea, let's hope so.

Right, it's late. Shall update some other days when I'm in the mood :D

Ta~

#lovefio
New blogskin!

Ah.. Work again tomorrow. Suddenly I'd rather just rot at home and not have the money for shopping. Yea, doesn't sound quite like Fiona anymore, eh? Mm.. PMS, pardon me.

But ya know, sometimes I really dread Saturdays. Apart from not getting to meet Baby, work isn't that bad actually. It's just that there really haven't been any crowd there since.. Since.. The damn building was up -.- And who do you expect me to sell those expensive clothings and accessories to? As ya know, Singaporeans. KIA SU LA!!! I need more customers to the damn shop.

At least I have really nice bosses. If not I'll just cry man, trust me. Tears of some freakin' boredom! Ah, save me.

Two more weeks of school to the end of semester's holiday. Regret not saving my 'off-days' for the last two weeks so that I can have five weeks of holidays instead of three. Ah well.

Changing class next semester and I doubt that I'd be able to fit in well, now with my horrible frequent changing moodswing. It'll just come swinging outta nowhere. Heck.

Time's crawling. I need my hols soon! BAH!

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.
.

Sometimes I hope what I thought of isn't what's happening around me.

Darn, I'm feeling emo again. I'm off, before the world floods.
And you'll see a lunatic running up and down screaming like some nutcase at the top of her voice. You know I'd love to do so.. (:
(Okay, that didn't sound quite right, but never mind)

Patiently wait for the return of Fiona Ong, people! It's gonna be worth it! :D

To Martin:
I'm sorry for the lack of replies to your mails, but I did try to send them. Must be some delivery failures or something. Don't worry though, I'll get it fixed real soon and inform you about it when I'm done. Just hope to hear from you still (: Take care.

#lovefio
I need a life, I need CASH!

Gah.. I sincerely wanted to go to school on Monday, I do! Well, I did, at least. It's the bus' fault! Not coming when I waited for it for so long and coming when I lost the hope of getting to school on time. Was thinking of leaving school at 12 p.m. but the damn bus just wouldn't come! If I were to come late for class and still want to leave early, I'm bound to end up with an beautiful F for my grade. So, clever people like me would choose the other choice – ah heck, school sucks :D

Kay, what I'm trying to say is I didn't go to school today. Instead, we met up with Esther and Ashley and headed off to town for a movie called 'Alone'. Damn show. It freaked me out at one point -.- BAH.

Manicured my nails at The Good Earth Nail Spa (TM, Level 3) before going off to look for Baby on Sunday, after my piano lesson. Ah yes, I have pretty nails now :D

Read my older posts from my old & dead blog. Man, how I wish I can write like that again! This blog’s gonna die out of the lack of posts and readers soon if I don’t do something about it. Well, I’m trying my best, peeps! Don’t go... ):

I'm still being lazy to upload the pics la. Just SO many of them la! Urgh -.- ... Some time later, people. Be patient, though I know you've been waiting for like centuries already la, but still..

See, now I forgot what I wanted to blog about in the first place. Ah.. Must be the lack of sleep. Bye people!

Oh yea btw, Happy Birthday, Singapore! And Happy National Day to the rest of you!

#lovefio
HOOOO~