Turn To Tomorrow

2009-01-22T09:03:00.000-08:00

Skipped school again and headed to town with my Babes on Tuesday.
Ah, I'm going to flunk that module anyway. So be it.

Got my hair done yesterday. I'm quite happy with the overall result (:
A new look, finally.

Clark Quay with my Babes this coming Saturday.
Unfortunately, work is in the way.
Yet my Babes are so sweet to come down to my workplace and accompany me home to change before we head for the pubs/clubs. Yay us.
Jov and Suping would then be crashing at my place after the fever.
God, now I can't wait till Saturday!
So damn anticipating lah!

#lovefio
Midnight fever.

2009-01-19T12:06:00.000-08:00

Shopping @ City Hall with Jovene, Suping and RX loves ended up with only Jovene and I. Sis Tiong came not long after and we continued shopping at Raffles City.
Was forced to get Clinique's moisturizer because my skin became very dried these few days.
And there goes my money.
Suping and RX were supposed to meet us too but they had projects to complete so we met back at TM after Sis' boyfriend came to fetch her off.
Half way back to TM, got Sis' call and she said she wants to meet us at TM altogether for drinks at Blue Urban Oasis.
And so, yes. Heineken again (:

Yes, my girlfriends stood by me through tears and laughters; bad times and good; thick and thin.
I would have been so lost by now if it weren't for my Babes.
Every single one of them are so important and special in their own ways.
And I appreciate for all they had done for me and with me.
I seriously wouldn't know what to do without anyone of them.
That's how important they are to me (:
Loves, my dear, dear friends.
I promise to be here whenever you need me too.
Always.

#lovefio
My babes (:

2009-01-16T12:56:00.000-08:00

狗改不了吃屎.
I should have known.

I still have my friends, my family, myself.
It doesn't make a difference whether or not you're here anyway.
I'm on my own.
Was then, is now, will be always.
Someone who is worthy of me will come in.
You're not the one.

#lovefio
Yay, the freedom (:

2009-01-16T11:02:00.000-08:00

Met Jovene for shopping at Parkway Parade yesterday after school.
First stop: Watsons.
Bought new foundation and masks.
God, spent.
Next stop: Topshop.
Tried many different kinds of clothing, dresses, etc.
God, spent again.
Then: Dorothy Perkins.
Nearly splurged unnecessarily if Jovene wasn't there to pull me away from that dress and clutch.
God, dear me.
Afterwards: M)phosis.
Reserved two hats (for Jovene and I each) @ CityLink.
God, am going to spend again soon.
Then: Cotton on Body.
Jovene's "we can go look for it tomorrow what.." did not work.
God, spent again again.

From the above, you can see that I've spent most of my pay already.
I gotta work like a beeeee during the holidays or I'll never get my facials done in time.

Meeting girlfriends Suping and Jovene later for another session of retail therapy.
The fun of it (:

#lovefio
Shop and drop!

2009-01-15T09:27:00.000-08:00

Such hypocrites.
Such morons.
Die a miserable death, will you?
Or you'll disappoint the world.

Don't disappoint the class at least.
And anyway, those vulgarities are minor.
They're such nothings which I have majored since Sec One.
Hey! Grow up (:
Drink more milk.

And oh, I understand Malay.
Have I mention before that my grandma's a Nyonya?

Didn't you sound so fierce just now?
What happened when I finally opened my mouth and said something?
Oh gosh, it was then you squeaked out like a rat.
And I didn't even use any vulgarities. Nor raise my voice.
What happened??

Tsk tsk, pathetic little one..
Do you even realise that you're mentally challenged?
How I wish I could post your photos up to show the world how Halloween is celebrated EVERYDAY.
Don't you have other clothes to wear??

Oh yeah, I come into the class AS AND WHEN I like (:
Hey doggie, go bark elsewhere.

I PRAY that you read this.
And die afterwards (:
Amen.

#lovefio
Crazy ass.

2009-01-12T15:39:00.000-08:00

They say it's better to be loved than to love someone.
I don't think so.

I wanna love again like how I had.
Like before.
Like then.
But on contrary, I feel so much relaxed now.
Need not care about anything, cry over stupid stuffs, worry over the same old thing over and over again.
Those heartbreaking news just weren't as heartbreaking as they used to be anymore.

That's a good thing, right?

I need retail therapy to get my mind off so many things.
Meeting Suping love for shopping after school on Friday.
I always love CNY - especially when Daddy gives me extra money :D

And my mood haven't been very good these few days.

#lovefio
Fuck it.

2009-01-09T09:14:00.000-08:00

"I'll call you when I get back"
Oh. Indeed.
Hey Coward, why didn't you just die there?? (:

Got pissed off. Real bad.
You should really die.

Now for the nicer things.
Met Sis Tiong for jogging at my place last night:
◌ Slacked and gossiped at void deck for an hour.
◌ Decided to start running eventually.
◌ Ran for a pathetic 15 minutes with breaks in between.
◌ Rested for half an hour before heading back to my house.
◌ Slacked some more at my place before shower.

Now you know what we commonly do when I say "Meeting Sis Tiong for jogging".
(: Yay.

Met Suping, RX and Jovene loves at TM two days back.
God, how I've missed them :D
Got plans at Clarke Quay two days before CNY.
Hopefully everything runs smoothly and we get to enjoy ourselves (:

I might see you, someone.
But it will all be different now.
The feelings, the love.
It's okay. I'm okay.
Just promise to always, always remember me.

I need a nape piercing.
And I need it fast.

#lovefio
Geez.

2009-01-06T10:01:00.000-08:00

O..K.. So I've been really busy with things recently that I don't have the time to update for say.. Yes, quite a long time.
And the laziness, of course.
But hey, I'm back already. Yay, people.

11th Dec '08 - 16th Dec '08
Aussie was fun, fun, FUN!
Arrived at Brisbane Airport early in the morning on the 12th of December. As early as 6 a.m. Aussie time (4 a.m. Singapore time) !! Can you imagine? Me? Waking up at 4 a.m. on a non-schooling day? Travelling can be damn tiring, damn.
Waited for the bus to Paradise Country, where the koalas and kangaroos and sheep and horses and cows, etc. are. Took pictures with the damn-cute-animals. I especially love the koalas! They were sleeping most of the time!

And yay, the cowboys there are HOT! I SWEAR!

Checked into the hotel and slept straight after shower. You have no idea just how beat we were!

Next day was where we spent the day at Sea World, Gold Coast.
Dolphin and sealion shows were brilliant! Aren't those animals just intelligent! And not to forget them being so cute! I'll post the pictures when I've got the time. But that'll be like months later, if you guys are fortunate enough. If not, you'll have to wait till next year then (: Haha.

The day after, we went to Movie World, Gold Coast.
Warner Brothers Productions! Roller Coaster rides! Shrek the Movie! Harry Potter! Scooby Doo! BUGS BUNNY AND TWEETY! Omg, Zac and I really enjoyed ourselves despite the hot sun.

Then, I fell sick.
Of all things.
Fortunately, it was already the 4th day there and it's a free and easy day. Hence, mom, Zac and I went shopping when I got slightly better after taking panadol. Shopping always makes my mood better :D

It was perhaps because of the weather there that I fell sick. The sun was big, bright and really sunny. Yet, the sea breeze made it feel very much like spring. It was so cooling I don't know which is which. And finally when I got back to Singapore, I fell ill with high fever of 39.7 degrees celcius.

17th Dec '08
Ruisui match @ 813.
After a long, long break, we're finally back again.
For you, Witaya and Chan Hong.
For you we played, and we won.
You'll be so proud if you were here with us. Both of you.
We made sure they paid for what they rudely commented.
We won with honour.

21st Dec '08
Last minute meet up for shopping with Sis Tiong and Suping love.
Bumped into Kenny sitting right in front of us in the train. He was known as the Golden Monkey of the lot. The easiest to spot!

22nd Dec '08
Suping and Jovene came over to find me after work and we relaxed ourselves a little from all the things around us @ Starbucks, Tampines Mall. Talked and laughed about almost anything possible.
LV lunchbox, eh?
Yes, yes. And spoilt children.

Suping then left and Jovene and I continued shopping around.
She showed me the Gucci shades she set her eyes on before but settled to buy a pair of Ray-Ban after much consideration. And I meant MUCH consideration.
As we stepped out of the shop, I spotted an Emporio Armani aviator and fell in love with it immediately. And lovely Jovene psycho-ed me into buying it and blah blah blah and great, I actually splurged on a pair of shades out of the blue - for like totally no good reasons at all -.-
But it was lovely, really (:

24th Dec '08
X'mas eve and countdown was spent with the babes, Suping and Jovene @ Blue Urban Oasis, Century Square.

25th Dec '08
Merry, merry X'mas, everyone!
Church in the morning and then headed to grandma's house to visit her.
Aunt Vera and Uncle George came back from Australia to take care of grandma.
Daddy then brought us to Kallang to have steamboat at The Mushroom Pot.
It was good and certainly worth the price.

@ Grandma's - the swing I used to play on when I was young.

Tom Tom (: R.I.P
Daddy and Mommy (:

Went off and met Baby and Xian Qi at TM aftermath.
Watched Ip Man and man, it's damn good! Very meaningful and stuff. Go watch, go watch!

26th Dec '08
It's boxing day! And damn, I'm back at work.
AT PARKWAYYYYY!!!!!!

27th Dec '08
Big quarrel with Baby. It didn't feel very good.
Means words and tears.
It's just not worth it.
I will learn to hide my negative feelings.
And try to control it from growing stronger.
But my attitude would stay as the way it is.
I'm just like that.

29th Dec '08
Happy 1st year 6th month together, Baby.
It's not too long, and not short at all.
But there would be many more years to come by, wouldn't there?

31st Dec '08
Met Sis Tiong at noon for shopping.

Yes, countdown with Baby but some moods and atmosphere were not as planned.
Had everything settled with love and care.
Everytime you do something sweet, I see it.
But it's those hurtful words which kept us apart. Or rather, it kept me away from you. Made me did not even wanna go near to you. Just to keep myself away from those hurtful things again.
But everytime we're cool and things got sorted out, we're happy again.
I want this love to last.
It's a new year, a new start.
A new hope for our relationship.
Nothing changed. I'm sure.
And I don't want any changes in time to come as well.

1st Jan' 09
Spent the day at home with Baby until evening where we went to catch "Yes Man" @ E!hub.
Jim Carrey was funny, but not as hilarious as he was in his previous movies in my opinion.

5th Jan '08
School reopens!!! DAMN!!!

But holidays are coming again in the next three weeks!
10 weeks of holiday! 10 WEEKS OF HOLIDAY, PEOPLE!

#lovefio
This whole month!

2008-12-09T21:37:00.000-08:00

Baby's back from Thailand. Yay.
We're going to have more Mac. Yay.
I'm going to grow fat before X'mas approaches. No yay.
Daddy changed iPhone with me. Cool.
Now I get to show off my new phone. Cool.
I have trouble putting in my songs now. Not cool.
Mommy, Zac and I are going to Auzzie soon.

Random.

BBQ @ Bel Darling's place was really enjoyable!
Had lots of food and chard chicken wings.
And Bel insisted we had to play stupid games like her Spongebob Squarepants Monopoly set with her!
(Hahaha. K lah, kidding.)
Overall, it was another great outing again!

And now,
I miss my darlings!
X'mas presents exchanging is reaching and I'm so fucking broke!
But I'll get all the presents ready for my babes (:
Yay! Next outing soon, dearies!

#lovefio
(:

2008-12-04T14:29:00.000-08:00

dai wo zou

I've got this song on repeat.

Can I..
Can I..
No, I can't.

Someone, please understand.

I cannot blog about how I feel/felt.
I don't even know what was I thinking.
I don't even know how I feel.
I shouldn't be suffocating like this.
Aren't I supposed to feel relieved?
Then why this sigh?
Why this confusing mind?
Damn, this sucks.
It sucks.

Bring me away, someone.
Someone I care.
Someone I miss.
Someone..

Who?

I know all of these confusion will go away one day.
I'm waiting.
Perhaps, this short break for me is necessary.
I need it to sort things out.
To think clearly again.
To know what I really want/need.
Baby, my love, my hero, my pig.
Yes, it's you.
It must be.

I'm repeating this,
I'll be here till the day you don't want me to be.
I promise.

#lovefio
带我走

2008-12-04T10:14:00.000-08:00

Skipped school again on Tuesday and accompanied Baby to the airport as he left for Thailand.
Bidded him goodbye and there were lots of "couldn't-bear-tos".
And damn, I'm missing Baby so much now.

I can't wait till Monday when Baby's finally back!
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!

And there is just something else that I miss.
But I know I can't.
It's unfair.
To everyone, everything.

Be strong, Fiona.
It won't be that difficult.
As time goes by, everything that shouldn't have existed will go away.
Then all would go back to square one.
Slowly.

Let me hold you tight, Baby.
Tell me that you're here and everything's gonna turn out fine.

#lovefio
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2008-12-03T11:29:00.000-08:00

Pics for Denver and YiKai's birthday chalet.
Just a few with my face (: Hee.

I'm off.
Damn tired.

#lovefio
Zzzz..

2008-11-29T11:25:00.000-08:00

Happy 1st year 5th month, love.
Any many more months to go (:

#lovefio
I love you.

2008-11-28T12:20:00.000-08:00

Met Sis Tiong last week and we headed to ParkWay after work for a game of pool with friends.
Pool isn't really our game so we just sat there to camwhore.
So yea.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO DENVER AND YI KAI!

Their birthday chalet yesterday was fun, fun, FUN!
Went there with Cherie and clique after buying the boys' birthday cake.
Satays, Vodka Mango and Sprite kept us companied the whole night.
Got tipsy and a little too loud, but had tons of fun.
Man, I almost could not go home.
Fortunately, Sis Tiong was there to go home together with me. Heh.

Couldn't get up this morning.
No hangover, but I guess the alcohol's still acting up in there.
Couldn't concentrate on where I was going and stuff.
Guess I had a tad too much.

Pics are with RX.
Will upload them after I get it from her.

#lovefio
Happy, happy birthday!

2008-11-28T11:24:00.000-08:00

W45L, 2007 Semester 1.

#lovefio
Darling, darling, brother!

2008-11-27T16:08:00.000-08:00

Celebrated Baby's birthday for him yesterday.
No photos, though.
Genius here forgot to bring her camera out.
But it's okay. We had fun, Baby and I (:

Went to grab Baby's Levi's jeans and then to Chinatown to get Baby's tattoo covered.
Some SSB shit.
Papa was very sweet to send us all the way back to Baby's place aftermath where we told each other more sweet things and more violence when it comes to tickling.
Mushy, oh whatever.
That's our way for loving each other. Hee.

Then we headed to Valley Point Shopping Centre for dinner @ Dozo, the Japanese and French fine dining restuarant which was advertised in between television programmes.
It was great! The food and the environment. The atmosphere as well - very romantic.
(Except the starter dish which consisted of goose liver. I almost puked)
The other dishes were not bad.

Honestly, I do regret forgetting to bring my camera.
My phone's camera didn't do any good in the dim lights of the restaurant.

Then again, we enjoyed ourselves.
Happy belated birthday, Baby.
More years to go, please (:

Denver and YiKai's birthday chalet today.
Meeting my babes and the guys later on to get their cake.
AT LAST!
DON'T YOU PEOPLE JUST MISS ME?!~
HAHA~

Chien came over to RP just now during second break out.
Man, do I miss you or do I miss you, brother!
Yeah! I miss you tons!!!
Paid a small price for these polaroid photos and they turned out damn nice!
I got the one which I looked damn fatty fat fat, though -.-
Oh wells.

COME TO RP OFTEN, CHIEN!
I KNOW YOU MISS US!
:D :D :D

#lovefio
Friends (:

2008-11-25T11:54:00.000-08:00

Time out, people.
I need a break.

A break from school.
A break from home.
A break from bitchiness.
A break from reality.
A break from all the nonsense.
A break from.. ~~Love?~~
Nah. Strike that.
I'm happily in love (:
With my Baby.

I'm contented with my near perfect life.
However, there are some people here to distort it.
These people should not be around.
Not in my life, at least.
Selfishness, greed, arrogance.
I don't need them.
Neither do I need anyone who potentially possesses them to exist around me.
Even if you were really close friends once.
Brush them off. Out, out, out.

I'm not going to be the stupid one who would help those people anymore.
Everything was taken for granted.
I deserve far better than this.
You deserve nothing pleasant at all.
I am contented by the things that I have/had.
You're not.
I am not greedy for more and more and more.
You are.
I do not take my friends/things for granted.
You do.
I am not selfish to a pathetic state.
You are.
The only thing that I'm unhappy about my life now is that you are still in it.
Tsk.

You see our difference?
We belong to totally different worlds.

Maybe your fame brought you here.
But by here, I meant 'You lost all your true friends'.
That's sad.
You should bang the wall and die.
I shall not/will not help you in any way, anyhow.

Enough of unpleasant things.
It's Baby's birthday tomorrow.
Buying him a Levi's jeans as a birthday gift and giving him a small surprise for dinner.
Yay, Baby. Your day is MINE tomorrow!
:D :D :D

Manicure later to match my outfit for tomorrow's event.
Actually, it's just an excuse to get my nails done. Hee.

Denver and YiKai's birthday chalet on Thursday.
I can't wait to see Cass, SP, RX, Sonny, YK, etc. again!
Though it has only been a week, but I miss you people! :D

Oh yeah.
Swimming sessions soon, Suku and Bel Darling?
I'm missing you girls as well!
And lots of things to rant about.
TONS! :D

#lovefio
Ooosh.

2008-11-21T15:38:00.000-08:00

Sis Tiong's birthday chalet (:

#lovefio
Happy belated once again, love.

2008-11-20T23:36:00.000-08:00

I wanna grow old with you.

Baby, I miss you.
I need to hug you and know that you're fine right now.
I need to feel your presence.
I need you..

I shouldn't be here.
All warm and comfortable, at home.
I should be with you.
How are you feeling now?
Would you fall sick?
You always do when the weather is not right or when you do not get enough sleep.
Is it very torturing there?
You're always complaining if it's too warm.
Or what if you're not used to it.
I always had to coo you that it'll be alright.
I wish I was there - right beside you.
No. I don't wanna go elsewhere.

You'll be fine. I know you will.
You're my strong statue of courage.
You are what kept me going.
I wanna be the reason that is keeping you going too.

Mama texted me. Papa called.
I didn't know what to say.
I restrained myself from tearing.
It was really hard.
If only you were here, you would know what to do.

I can't go to bed now.
I couldn't sleep, though I'm really tired.
It's been a long, long day for me.
And Mama and Papa.
I can't go to sleep without you saying "Goodnight, baby. I love you."
I wanna feel you tugging me into bed..
And that kiss softly planted both on my lips and my forehead..

Please be alright.
I love you.

#lovefio
Prayers.

2008-11-20T12:54:00.000-08:00

Happy belated 18th birthday, sis!
Loves!

Went to Downtown with SuPing, RuoXuan, Denver, JunWei and his girlfriend for sis' and Barry's birthday chalet. Before that, we went to get sis' birthday cake - strawberry (:
Hope you liked it, Sis Tiong :D
JunWei has been calling me Sis Ong for almost the whole night -.-

Overall, hope you've enjoyed yourself, sis!
It's a memorable 18th birthday (:

Went to look for Baby @ Kovan two days ago with Shermaine and Baby's cousin, Joey.
We waited for Baby to knock off to go back together.
However before that, Baby and Joey went over to Heartland Mall to get a surprise for me, when Shermaine and I thought that they were out smoking.
It's a very sweet surprise (:
Thanks, Baby.
And I hope you'll be fine now.
I'm really worried.

Stupid things recently?
Yeah. I thought so.

谁才是你爱情中的伯乐..

#lovefio
Gosh.

2008-11-14T15:07:00.000-08:00

Accompanied Sis to Downtown East to check some things for her chalet. Walked around the new-yet-not-so-new shops there and at E!hub. Then we settled down at McCafe for Double Chocolate Frappe and Mango Smoothie and cakes.
Then we talked about the oh-so-many things happening around us.
It was super relaxing.

But some things just got into me and made me blow up this morning.
Microsoft should go fuck themselves. Fucking slow pay and we have to do extra jobs in order to get our pay.
WTF.

Grandma's been admitted into the hospital again.
Going to visit her after school.
I'm praying her situation isn't that bad.

Well, at least there's something pleasant happening.
FASIO PAY IS COMING IN IN 2 DAYS!
Yay.

#lovefio
Grr..

2008-11-13T12:13:00.000-08:00

I don't know what I want.
I got myself in this.
Now I have to get out of it,
myself.

I'm depending on you, courage.
Help me.
Get me out of this. Alive.

But somehow, something in me is still hanging on.
Something is keeping me on this string.
I can't let go, I don't know why.
Maybe because if I do, I know, I'll fall.
Real hard.

#lovefio
What to do.

2008-11-13T11:34:00.000-08:00

Things happened so fast.
I almost could not breathe.
Sometimes I feel strangled.
Yet there's this force that kept me going.
Happily. No regrets.

Everything that happened recently made me realise how much I love you.
And I do.
Please make it all worth it.

#lovefio
Damned.

2008-10-29T11:09:00.000-07:00

Happy 1st year 4th month, love.
Sure there'd be ups and downs.
But fret not.
I'll be by your side for as long as you want me to.
I love you.

#lovefio
1.4 (:

2008-10-24T11:11:00.000-07:00

If you really love me,
if you really do.
Don't just tell me. Show me.

Why am I looking for critical feelings from someone else?
Why do I envy other girls?
Why does my heart turn sour when there other couples around me?
Why am I not contented?
Why am I not happy?

It's funny, isn't it?

Shouldn't I be the most fotunate girl ever?
Shouldn't I feel that I'm being loved?
Shouldn't I get the best boyfriend in the world?
Shouldn't I...
I don't know. You tell me.

Is this just another pathetic feeling of mine which comes and goes as and when it likes?
Well, I don't like it.
Someone, ask it to go away.

Cut the craps.
Shoot me dead.

Mood-swings have been acting up quite fiercely these few days.
Or weeks.
I thought I had it all.
But I don't.

My head hurts.
My stomach churns.
What's this horrible yet undescribable feeling?
It's tearing me apart. It's ripping me, literally.

And I thought you were suppsoed to be there.
And I thought that at least, you were supposed to care.
Have you?
Or am I asking for more and more each and every single time?
This greed, they say.
Why won't it go away?

#lovefio
Love me, boy.

2008-10-23T16:56:00.000-07:00

How Men Change.
Enjoy, girls!

The Love Word:
After 6 weeks: I looo-ve you, I love you, I love you!
After 6 months: Of course, I love you.
After 6 years: GOD, if I didn't love you, then why did I marry you?

Back from Work:
After 6 weeks: Honey, I'm home!
After 6 months: I'm BACK!!
After 6 years: Have you cooked yet?

Phone Ringing:
After 6 weeks: Baby, somebody wants you on the phone.
After 6 months: Here, it's for you.
After 6 years: ANSWER THE PHONE DAM*T!!

Cooking:
After 6 weeks: I never knew food could taste so good!
After 6 months: What are we having for dinner tonight?
After 6 years: DUMPLING AGAIN??

New Dress:
After 6 weeks: Wow, you look like an angel in that dress.
After 6 months: You bought a new dress again?
After 6 years: How much did THAT cost me?

TV:
After 6 weeks: Baby, what would you like us to watch tonight?
After 6 months: I like this movie.
After 6 years: I'm going to watch PIRATES play, if you're not in the mood, go to bed, I can stay up by myself!

Making Love:
After 6 weeks: Baby, I want you tonight?
After 6 months: Lets make another baby, my mother just called!!!
After 6 years: Please MOVE over to your side, I'm suffocating here!!!!

So true eh? Hahaha

#lovefio
Men.

2008-10-21T10:25:00.000-07:00

JOHN LITTLE @ CAUSEWAY POINT SUCKS BIG TIME!

Rude staffs! Lao CBs! MENOPAUSE!

#$^@!$%>#$^@!

#lovefio
Fuckers!

2008-10-17T13:55:00.000-07:00

I changed job. Again.
It was sis' previous job as a Fasio promoter. Was told that the in charge is a very mean and unreasonable person but I still gave it a try anyway. I'm too broke to be choosy anymore.
Well, I did have a job before this as a Microsoft promoter. However, piano lessons could not be changed and it's a sad thing that this job does not have a flexible timing where you come in 'one hour later so you leave one hour later'. It's a standard 12 p.m. to 8 p.m.
But anyways, this current job of mine pays me more :D

Started first day of work on Wednesday and ended up with my feet cramped. The last time I stood this long without much movement was quite some time ago.
But hell, I have to get used to this because so many people's birthdays are coming and I am so broke now.

I've got some slimming to do before Baby's birthday!
Off now!

#lovefio
Fat-less!

2008-10-15T20:17:00.000-07:00

Finally!
So over-dued!

Esther's birthday party.

Bel's birthday at Seoul Garden.

#lovefio
Happy birthdays!

2008-10-06T10:54:00.000-07:00

I'm so not in the mood.
My ass hurts.
I miss my Baby.
I dreamt. A nightmare.

#lovefio
Good grace.

2008-10-02T10:05:00.000-07:00

Sentosa with Sis and her friend a few days back.
Horribly bad weather.
But yea, I had fun! (:

Swimming @ Bayshore with Bel Darling, Suku Dear and Conan yesterday.
Had Korean Maggi for lunch at Bel's place aftermath and somehow it tasted better than the normal maggi I used to cook at home, or at Baby's house.
Then, we headed down to Expo for the Robinsons sales. Couldn't resist the temptation to get that Lacome listick which was selling really cheap! And yea, I'm broke again.
So much for saving up for the necessities.

Oh wells, at least I enjoyed myself with my darlings :D

Can't wait till Sunday.
Celebrating Bel's birthday @ Bugis Seoul Garden.
She mentioned to us quite some time ago that she wants to have Seoul Garden on her birthday. We still remember!
And babe, I've got a surprise installed specially for you (:

Bel Darling and Suku Dear,
thanks for being such great friends.
Friends forever, this I promise (:

#lovefio
Loves! <3

2008-09-29T14:38:00.000-07:00

Happy 1st year 3rd month, my dear.
<3<3<3I love you.With lots of love, me.

#lovefio
1.3 (:

2008-09-28T19:02:00.000-07:00

Things-to-spend-on list:

- Be Sanctuary Facial Treatments
- Lee Cooper sneakers
- Naval studs
- Sony T700 Digital Camera (Red)
- Coach Handphone strap

Altogether, I need more a thousand bucks.
Anyone who is oh-so generous willing to sponsor all these necessities for me??

I guess this could be a good opportunity for me to slim down by not eating and start saving money. And this could be another sign telling me to stop lazing around at home and get my ass up to find a job - now that I've stopped working at the Guerlain counter, Tangs and Takashimaya.

This sucks.

#lovefio
Money-less

2008-09-25T08:19:00.000-07:00

Got this phone call from Be Sanctuary and they asked me to go down for a free trail for their Eye Collagen Treatment and Hand Wax Treatment. I was told that I can bring a friend along, so I asked Sis to go together.

There, our hands got waxed.

Yea, literally waxed.
No, not the hair-plucking wax.

We decided to do the Eye Collagen Treatment another time as it was getting late. Sis and I both signed a facial package each for 600 bucks.
600 bucks! Where am I suppose to get 600 bucks now that I'm not working?!
Oh wells, my skin needs salvage.
There's nothing I can do about it now.

Met Bel yesterday at Bayshore for a swim.
God, I've missed you, darling! Like miss you tonnnnnnns lah!
It feels so good to catch up with your old friends and spend the leisure time together.
Though sometimes it's not exactly for the whole day, but just enough to catch up with things which we've missed out for so long.
Then, dinner and shopping at Park Way. I didn't buy a single thing and I'm so proud of myself for that (:

Meeting Bel and Suku on Wednesday for another swimming session.
Hopefully, this time the suana isn't closed.
I can't wait to see you babes again! :D

#lovefio
Darlings (:

2008-09-23T09:14:00.000-07:00

The babe, RX.

Tried fish therapy yesterday with RX.
It was so fun~ And CHEAP!
:D
But the shop keeper was horrible.
She's plain rude. No wonder the shop's closing down and changing to a new boss soon. With a staff like her, it's a surprise the shop can last till now.
Bah.

Promised to accompany RX to Bugis for shopping. Dropped by at Haji Lane first and thought I could get the Vintage shoes I was searching high and low for. However, it was all a disappointment.
Oh wells, it's okay though. I'll just have to look somewhere else.

Went back to Bugis Junction for dinner and to look for sis at BHG aftermath.
Then, Bugis Street. And it was quite packed for a weekday evening.
That was where we got our feet cleansed. It wasn't planned, the fish therapy.
And it was ticklish. I couldn't help but lift my feet up everytime I feel the fish coming to me.
And dang. There's this big, fat and ugly sucker fish trying to get near my feet but got kicked away from me. So it went back to suck on RX's feet, causing her to freak out.
SUCKER. It's so ugly!
Hahahahahahaha.

Ok. So that's our small adventure with the suckers and kissers from Bugis Street.
Go try, people. Only 5 bucks.
Just ignore the stupid auntie.

#lovefio
Fishy/ie~

2008-09-20T20:11:00.000-07:00

NEW BLOGSHOP.
Do support!
:D http://vivicherry.livejournal.com/

#lovefio
New blogshop.

2008-09-19T11:53:00.000-07:00

I regret coming to school today. Big time.

I should go home.
I should be in the arms of my Baby.
I should be sleeping right now.
I should be anywhere but HERE!
How am I going to survive 13 more lessons in this weirdo class?!!
Save me.

Baby's off day again today. That's why school's a bigger dread now.
This elective class isn't helping with all the weird people staring blankly at me.
And the facilitator's a gay.
I should leave.

And I am so screwed for this module.

Oh wells, so be it. I'm not an every-lesson-must-get-A person, so yea.
Sis came over for dinner and jogging yesterday.
Before that we met at TM cos I wanted to get a pair Everlast sneakers to go with my new Levi's jeans, but they didn't have my size in that particular colour I glued my eyes on.
So I ended up buying nothing but food.
The craving for almost anything edible I've set my eyes on is evolving into something quite scary. I didn't know I could eat so much either.

And the jogging session didn't help that much cos we walked instead for almost half of the round we were supposed to jog.
Yes, remind me of my fats.
And yes, jogging sessions are meant for jogging. OK.

#lovefio
Fuck.

2008-09-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

Sis came over to my house yesterday for a piano-and-gossip session.
Yay, I've missed you, love!

Late for school as usual. Couldn't "pull" myself out of bed on time to prepare and catch the early bus, damn. I'm so sick of school already.

This Friday is Baby's off day again. I'm still deciding whether to skip Friday's lesson for the "last time" or not. I had always been telling myself "It's the last time now" but it gets more and more like virus. A virus without a cure.
Hell.

Anyway, skipping school this Friday would also mean that my fellow classmates and facilitator in E24C, Arts Management, would not even have seen my face before ever since school started.
Ahhh, I'm in such a difficult state.

You know, I should really stop skipping school. Kick this habit.
No, seriously. Like for real!
My GPA's a fucking pathetic borderline pass!

New motivation.
New motivation.
New motivation.
I need to think of/find a new motivation (:

#lovefio
Yay school -.-

2008-09-15T11:10:00.000-07:00

6th September
Baby's off day again, finally.
Baby's dad brought us to some lunch buffet at Rendezvous Hotel. The food was alright but not exactly up to a hotel standard though.
Head off to town aftermath to return some wireless thingy for Baby's dad at Paragon and finally Baby's got his hair-cut which he promised to like months ago.
Before that, we went to catch Wall-E.
Oh, cute! Man, I swear I'll buy one of those robots if they ever invent them!

8th September
A mental struggle in deciding whether to go to school or not.
Ended up in school very, very unwillingly, and damn, a fucking wrong choice to make.
Plus, Baby's fallen sick. I should be there to take care of him (:
Not in SCHOOL!

9th September
Decided to skip school after Monday's horribly draggy lesson.
It was a right choice to make cos Baby's fallen sick and has taken the day off.
Went over to Baby's place to stay over at around 5 a.m.
Felt so good with him holding me close to his chest.
Accompanied Baby to the polyclinic the next morning and man, the doc sure knows how to earn himself a few bucks there. He gave Baby 8 different kinds of medicine.
Crazy.
E!hub aftermath for Mee-Sua and 12 Lotus.
Just to find that 12 Lotus isn't showing in any Shaw or Cathay cineplexes, be it in town or not.
Damn them.
Persuaded Baby to watch 4Bia instead, though I've watched it before. I know he wants to watch it just as bad.
At least the trip to E!hub wasn't wasted (:

11th September
Yes and, what a great day for me to fall sick. Of allllll days.
I've got my Piano Grade 6 Practical Exam today and I sound like a horse.
I'm so done for aural. And scales. And the pieces. And sight-reading. Everything.
Called Mommy and she consoled me by saying "What to do? Retake again loe. Just have to delay one more year to grade 8 lah."
Haha, yay. I love you, Mom.
And she bought me laksa when i got home. Wow, my voice.

Good thing Baby brought me to see the doc after he ended work. Didn't want to go cos I hate the clinic. And medicine, yuck. Yet he insisted.
Seriously, I wouldn't know what to do without him by my side (:
A few minutes with the weird doctor and a few different kinds of normal clinic medicine and an MC cost 56 bucks. 56 bucks! That clinic's a scam!

And oh, the MC's just for show.
RP doesn't even accept MCs. How dumb.

12th September
Skipped school again!
RP's making me hate attending school all over again. Good job.
New motivation, please!

Dragged myself out of bed, to the bus stop and to school this morning. Baby's house is just in front of me when I walked pass it to go to the bus stop. A strong urge to go up and cuddle with Baby in his warm bed.
Man, I hate school.

#lovefio
-.-

2008-09-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

Met sis about a week back to Park Way to get a top from Cotton On which I'd been eyeing on for quite some time now. Went off to TM to catch 4BIA aftermath.
Scary I tell you, scary.

Then, met up with her again yesterday to TM to get the Adidas bag I was looking at for so long.
Got it finally and yay me, I love it :D

School's back tomorrow.
While others are still having their hols I'm starting school??
Darn.
Screw RP.

New semester, new classmates.
Have I mention that I'm not a very sociable person?
Damn.

Today is not a very good day afterall.
Someone just spoilt it.

#lovefio
Fuck it.

2008-08-29T20:59:00.000-07:00

We talked about so many things last night.
All the memories flowing back.
You forgot some of them, and I, too.
Then we were laughing when we shared some secrets.
And then the tears came when I asked "What if I were to disappear some day?"
You told me not to go, in any form, just don't.
And guess what?
I won't. I'm not going anywhere, no.
Because you're all I ever wanted to be.
I'm staying right here, Baby.
Right here..

Happy monthsary, my pig.
Happy First Year Second Month (:
You're my love.

#lovefio
1.2 (:

2008-08-29T20:53:00.000-07:00

Back to TPSS today with Cherie and clique.
School's so different. And I miss those times!

It was initially for the Teachers' Day celebration. Then instead, it ended up as a gathering for all of us.
Happy, though (:

The laughs were so fun and genuine. The making-fun-of and the made-fun-ofs.
Just like the old times.

You were supposed to be here with us.
Both of you.

#lovefio
R.I.P

2008-08-26T18:45:00.000-07:00

Their rituals and cremations were heartbreaking.
I couldn't help myself. I'm sorry.

Went to their wakes for the last time.
Went to see them for the last time.
Walked round their coffins for the last time.
Being so close to them for the last time.
Remembering their looks for the last time.

Crying for them - not the last time.

Broke down during both of their cremations. I didn't know what to do, but cry. I felt so helpless, so lost. I couldn't believe I've lost them. Both of them, at the same time. This is too much.
Too, too much.

Though all is over, but this awful feeling would stay with us for life.
I kept screaming for them deep inside, hoping they'd hear me.
Did you, or you? Please..

The fire burnt like it didn't hurt.
Did it?
Come back and tell me, it did, didn't it?
I wish I can be there to save both of you, whatever.
But all I could do is cry. On and on and on..

Come back and let me hug you two just one last time.
I promise it will be the last.
I won't ask for more.

I just miss those times.

#lovefio
Not good.

2008-08-24T23:25:00.000-07:00

Bet most of you have heard of this tradegy - two 16 year old schoolboys died yesterday.
I cannot believe what I heard when Suku called and told me about it last night.
I cried.
I cried upon hearing their names and confirming from many others that it is them.
I cried real hard.

We got to know one another through playing basketball along with some other guys from our school. Then, we decided to get together to form a guys' basketball team - Rui Sui 瑞穗.
The guys beat so many teams together. Often with Witaya as the top scorer, or at least the second top scorer.

Chan Hong was always the happy-go-lucky one. Forever smiling and with a very pleasant heart. He never fails to shout my name or cry "SHI FU!" whenever he sees me.
Yes, he is that adorable.

Witaya played like a star. Both of them played really well, actually. He's the only "god-brother" I had and was the one I held so dearly at heart. He always makes people happy, whatever situation it is. He said he's my punching bag, cos I loved hitting him on the abs and he never feels the pain. Yet he would act like it hurt a lot, just to make me happy.

Atmosphere at both of their wakes was very, very tensed.
Their parents cried their hearts out. I guess nobody would know how they were feeling at that time.
The agony, and the pain.
To just wanting their sons back, it's so difficult now.
It's impossible to.

I cried.
We all cried.
All cannot be controlled.

I wouldn't ask "Why them? They're such nice boys, why them?"
No.
God must have his reasons.
But, I'll miss them.
We would all miss them.
Very, very much.

Life will move on.
They will be missed.
And they will watch us from above.
No more crying. It shall all be kept deep inside.
Just remember, they're the most lovable dual of all time.

Always in our memories,
Ku Witaya & Sia Chan Hong.

#lovefio
We love you.

2008-08-21T18:44:00.000-07:00

Dior Eyeliner selling @ $23 each.
$21 each for 2 or more purchases.

If interested, please email to
fiona73-@hotmail.com

#lovefio
Christian Dior.

2008-08-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

Went to TM with Christina yesterday before heading off to Baby's house to wait for him to come back from work. It's been quite some time before going out with her.
And she keeeeeeps ~complaining~ that she's fat -.-
Look at her size -.-

Is she nuts, or,
is she nuts???

Met sis today. Like finally!
She has been very busy recently and at last we've met!
Man, how I miss her (:

Went to Parkway Parade just because bus 15 goes there straight. Don't have to take the trouble to change buses or squeeze into the sardin-packed trains.

Then, chaos.

Then again, we had fun :D

#lovefio
Loves, sis.

2008-08-16T19:03:00.000-07:00

Out with Baby yesterday.
Didn't have steamboat as planned,
but Jack's Place for lunch and Lerk Thai for dinner was good enough.

Caught Love Guru. Not.. tooooo bad.. but, stupid show, seriously.
Some parts are worth the laugh, though.

Accompanied to Baby to the clinic aftermath.
Heat rashes are attacking my love ):
Then, home sweet home (:

I really enjoyed myself with Baby.
I'm all smiles (:

#lovefio
Date.

2008-08-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

BAM!
An update. Happy, people?
:D

K-session with Ivy Green, Si Ying Deon and Chien Bro.
FUN, FUN, FUN!
@ old Icon - Top One.
Cheap and good. Better than KBox!

Met up with the girls with big, broad smiles :D
Man, I miss them so much.
Especially Chien! It's been yearssssss since we last met!
Was a tad late (as usual), but wells, they understand (:

Chien
Si Ying
Ivy

Neoprints aftermath! :D

Had so much fun with the babes!
Thank y'all for this special outing.
I'm looking forward to the next one! :D
It's coming up soon, right? Right?

Baby's off day today.
Met him just now at his place and we had porridge.
He's the chef, again :)

I can't wait for tomorrow's steamboat!
And shopping!
With Baby :)

#lovefio
W45L

2008-08-04T14:27:00.000-07:00

Went to CozyCot's blogshop event with RuoXuan and SuPing girl palzzzzzzz yesterday.
Happening, I tell you.
Broke again, yay.

It was a happy day, though. Caught up with so many things which we've missed out. I miss going out with my girlfriends (:

PP's not going anywhere.
And I'm going to die for piano exam.
Yay me.

Cancelled movie.
Cancelled date.
Bad hair day.
I seriously need some stress relief pills.

Is anything going to come my way today?
Ah fuck.
At least the hols are coming. Just 4 more days to go.

Let me dream of someone again tonight.
Perhaps I'll feel better.

Today is not a happy day.

#lovefio
Damned.

2008-07-31T10:05:00.000-07:00

Last night,
I dreamt of someone.

#lovefio
Non-existance.

2008-07-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

Bushed.
Jogging yesterday was not as fulfilling as it seemed like the past two times (no kick, as some of you might describe it as). Yes, I'm boasting that perhaps my stamina has improved :D
Or it could be due to some very random thoughts going through my mind that made me wonder away from the fact that I was jogging.
Either way, they're good!

Piano exam coming up and I doubt I can make it through this time.
Haven't been practicing at all, now that I remember. It's time I scare myself a little bit by reminding myself everyday that PIANO PRACTICAL EXAM'S UP IN ONE MONTH'S TIME.
(I'm sure I'll panick everytime I see this post)

And PP (Professional Profiling)'s deadline dues next Saturday! I haven't even started.
Yes, I'm panicking already.

I need some stress relief pills.

But I'm not going to let anything get in the way of my good mood today.
It's our monthsary (:

Meeting Baby later at his place.
I miss hugging him to sleep at night.
(:

And,
Happy First Year First Month, Baby.
Let this love blossom into something beautiful.

#lovefio
I love you, I love you.

2008-07-28T11:34:00.000-07:00

Went to catch "Don't Mess With The Zohan" with Baby, Shermine (Baby's younger sister), Huiling jiejie (Baby's cousin) and her friend some time ago. Waited for Baby to knock off before heading to Cineleisure where unfortunately, all the tickets were sold out.

So, we went over to Plaza Sing instead to catch a 1.40 a.m. show.
Gosh, can you imagine how exhausted we were at the end of the movie?
Good thing Huiling jiejie's friend drives a car.
It's time I go get my lisence too :D

Oh yea,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, SUKU DEAR!
LOVE YOU, LOVES!

#lovefio
Movies, movies!

2008-07-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

Dorina sent this to me.
Thought that it was quite interesting.
And true.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

Yet again, people. Cherish.

#lovefio
<3

2008-07-23T15:28:00.000-07:00

Here are the pictures I promised.

RuoXuan, Esther, SuPing and Sis celebrated my birthday for me on the day itself.
So sweet of them!

However, only Esther, RuoXuan and I had Seoul Garden together as the others didn't have enough money.
I'm still happy, no worries (:

Esther got me this HOT pink clutch from Charles & Keith. Man, I loved it!
It's goddam PINK!

Denver came to look for Esther and I while we were shopping and waiting for RuoXuan to come. Bugged him about Seoul Garden but he was dead broke.
Oh well, next time, perhaps.

RX, my lovely (:

Despite being busy with tons of projects and presentations to cover, SuPing came while we were having our dinner to pass me my present. Thanks, babe!
And it's a stuffed toy frog, from RuoXuan, SuPing and JunWei.
Thanks, guys!
Yes, yes. I love FROGS!
(I'll post up a picture of all of my presents soon!)

Sis joined us after Seoul Garden. She was with us before we went into the restaurant and waited all the way for us to finish dinner. I'm really touched (:
She too, gave me a stuffed toy frog, but it can also be used as a pencil case.
Yea, you people do know what my loves are (:

Went home to celebrate with my family aftermath.
Mango cake! :D

I don't know why and I forgot where I heard from that you cannot cut the birthday cake all the way to the bottom. Taboo, again?
Haha. I don't know, you decide. I chose to go with the flow~

After the celebration, dashed to Baby's place and waited for him to come back from work. How can I end my birthday-day without him? (:
He's my everything.

Two days before my birthday, Baby took the day off and brought me out for a date.
A date.
So foreign yet so familiar.
The kind of happiness - it's indescribable.
What's more, I've missed it. And I'm glad that finally I can feel it again.
This time stronger than any other times.

Went over to Baby's house first where he gave me the presents he bought for me the day before when he was with his friends and sadly, I was home alone.

Baby Pooh!
I couldn't stop hugging it till now!

He got me a bracelet too.
It was P R E T T Y~ :D

Baby and I wore the same Kappa polo-tee which I bought as a couple tee. No complains, no fussy comments, but big, bright smiles on both of our faces. I'm surprised that Baby didn't mind wearing a couple tee out. In fact, he was the one who suggested that we wear it out together on this outing.
Yippe (:

We had New York New York at E!hub.
The environment and atmosphere were brilliant.
We ate so much that we had difficulties walking after that.

But we still made it to the movies to catch Red Cliff. Baby has been dying to watch it. It was alright, but the ending sucked. No, wait. There isn't even an ending. There's still part II to it.

Then, we made our way up to the top floor for KBox.
Man, KBox! I haven't stepped into KBox for say..... a few years already.
It's always Party World, KCCCC or the one at Katong, Teo Heng.

Had a little tiff with Baby not long after Dickson and Alpha joined us.
But all was settled with sorrys and hugs from each other.

I love you, Baby.
Finally, I realised that it doesn't matter why anymore.
I just do.

Thanks for this very, very special day.
You made it even more meaningful (:

#lovefio
Love you, loves.

2008-07-21T14:54:00.000-07:00

Birthday was celebrated with loves. All of my loves (:
Boyfriend, girlfriends, family.
Who said that you can't have it all?
It only depends on how well you cherish them.
I cherish them, the best way that I can (:
I love you all.

Will upload the pics when Esther send me all of them. I know you people can't wait.

Jogging today was cancelled. Library, instead. Meeting Sis later at TM after my piano make-up lesson to get the gossips going.
I have tonsssss to rant about, Sis. Beware.

#lovefio
Blessed (:

2008-07-15T14:50:00.000-07:00

Bel, Suku, Conan, Jay and YiKai threw a great birthday celebration for me yesterday. I was so, so happy.
Thanks guys (:

Reached KCCCC at around 7 p.m. to meet them. Was super late cos 168 wasn't cooperating. 168 never cooperates! Urgh! Suku and gang were there at 6 p.m. already and were all waiting for me. I felt bad lah, letting them wait.

When I stepped into Room 9, the gang began singing the birthday song and a birthday cake in the middle of the small table.
I swear I was so touched.

Suku and Conan bought the cake, and Bel made me a ring using beads and swarovski crystals which Alex designed.
The cake was brilliant! And the present was really sweet! :D

We had so much fun singing and teasing one another. After the K-session, we talked and laughed as we made our way to Bedok 85 for dinner, where we had a a whole load of things to eat.

It was fun yesterday, really.
Thanks again, guys.
I'm loved, and I can feel it (:
I really enjoyed myself.

Disappointments are what you always give me.
It doesn't matter when or how.

#lovefio
Dang.

2008-07-14T15:01:00.000-07:00

Birthday's coming, but I don't feel..
Happy?
Gosh.

Meeting Bel, Suku, Conan and Renda after school for K-session and supper at Bedok 85. So sweet of them to celebrate my birthday for me in advance (:
I'm loved.

Baby's got the day off today but I'm wasn't able to accompany him.
Oh well, shall make it up to him some other day (:

I'm going to enjoy myself with my besties later!
Can't wait, can't wait!

#lovefio
Yippie!

2008-07-10T11:24:00.000-07:00

Got the rest of the month off from work.
Heaven, seriously.
I finally get to do what I wanna do and I wouldn't be as no-life as ever.
However, this may mean that I wouldn't have as much shopping to do with the sudden lack of cash.
Dang.

I need a money-making machine.
Now.

Met Sis after her lessons yesterday and headed to Parkway Parade to do some shopping. Fortunately, the bus journey there was not as torturing as it used to be. Sis and I had so many things to talk about though we haven't met for only one day. Haha.
Spent over a hundred bucks over at Parkway, damn. Yes, on what, you people might ask. Neccessities lah, tons of it. Heh.
Everything is a need to girls, anyway (:

Headed back to Baby's place to wait for him to knock off from work.
Man, I just love his pressence around me (:

Oh yea, a thousand thanks to my son, Denver, for this adorable Pluto soft toy he got me when he went to Paris' Disneyland!
So sweet of him to still think of me when he's all the way over there! :D
Appreciated.
(And stop asking me to return Pluto to you. It's MINE now! Hahaha~)

Flooded with my face, happy, aren't you guys? :D
Ha, bye.

#lovefio
Pluto loves~

2008-07-10T10:49:00.000-07:00

Conan's birthday - 6th July!
Treated him to the Suki Sushi buffet and spent the day with him, Suku, Bel, Alex and Jay Buddy. Renda joined us after the buffet.
It's been CENTURIES, guys! Like finally!

Suku and Conan
Alex and Bel

Alex, Bel and Jay
Renda

#lovefio
Happy belated Birthday!

2008-07-08T21:40:00.000-07:00

Slacked around one of the fitness corner nearby Sis' place a few days ago. Talked till the roadside lamps were out then I was on my way home. We just have so much things to say.

KTV session with Sis last week.
Had fun, really (:

Cheer up, Sis. Everything would turn out just fine. Put everything in God's hands. He knows what's best for you. If this isn't The One, he will never be.
But I would be here for you no matter what.
Just like how you were there for me when I needed someone bad.
Appreciated (:
I love you.

#lovefio
SISTAS!

2008-07-08T21:19:00.000-07:00

MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING IN THE NEXT 10 DAYS!
It's time to save money for my PRESENTS! :D

Still don't have plans for my birthday, though. But I guess hanging out with my girlfriends and Baby would be good enough for me.
Yes, yes. The 18th birthday should be something "more", as you people might say. But having so many people who loves me by my side to celebrate this special day with me is already something "more".
I have something more (:

Met Baby yesterday after so many days of not being able to see him.
Man, I'm contented (:
Even when it's only for a few hours.

#lovefio
(:(:(:

2008-07-01T16:56:00.000-07:00

Jogging was cancelled due to lazy bones and tons and tons of gossips to go round.
Had fun, though (:

Heading to Sim Lim Square to get my IT Show pay later on.
Yay, money, money (:

Esther sent me someone's blog and I read through her entries.
It was heartbreaking. I cannot imagine if I were her.
I kept telling Esther, "I don't want Fabian to die..." ):

After reading that blog, it taught me to treasure my time with everyone around me.
I want everyone here with me, forever and ever.

Immature, but what more can I ask for?

#lovefio
):

2008-06-30T10:27:00.000-07:00

29/06/08, Sunday
Happy First Year Anniversary.
(:

It didn't turn out the way it was supposed to.
But still, pizza, chicken wings, ben&jerry's and old gold made me happy enough.

And you stood by me, that's what's most important.

Let the unmemorable times go.
All I need is you.
And you, me.

I love you <3
Always and always.

#lovefio
You're my destiny.

2008-06-28T11:54:00.000-07:00

Some very, very overdued pictures.
:D

With Christina, my babe.

Cheer up, babe. You don't look too good these few days.
Whatever it is, I'm always here, ya? (:

#lovefio
That evening.

2008-06-28T10:04:00.000-07:00

Outing with Sister and Esther.
Had fun, really (:

LOVE YOU GIRLS (:
At least we have one another here when needed.

Say what you wanna say, what you always say.
About everything and everyone. Anywhere, and to whoever you want to.
You never stop, you never rest anyways.
We're happy the way we are. Don't bother trying to break us up. You'll never succeed. The only thing that you'll succeed doing is making a fool out of yourself and ruining yourself.
Don't worry, karma will be your friend left by your side (:

#lovefio
Yada, yes.

2008-06-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

Met up with Suku Dear and Angelina Darling for our long-lost girly dates quite some time ago.
Like Finally! I missed you girls!

They accompanied me to iModel Pte. Ltd. for the interview.
And they got really bored...

Love you lah dey! (:

#lovefio
My girls <3

2008-06-27T16:17:00.000-07:00

Communication Theories - Colonialism and Orientalism. I'm so going to screw this module, big time.
How am I suppose to pull through Semester Two and the rest of Year Three???

Jogging with Sister later on (:
Time for our girly-talks and big time relaxation.
Can't wait, can't wait!

Spa, manicures, pedicures, massages, jacuzzi, sauna, facials, etc.
I'm saving up already! :D

#lovefio
That's The Life.

2008-06-27T10:14:00.000-07:00

Ruo Xuan's birthday.
She looked so super duper sweet on that day.

The old bunch (:

Yati, Esther, Baidurah and I.
Ruo Xuan Dear!

Ruo Xuan & I.

Thanks babe, for never failing to be there whenever I need you.
Old friends are always the best (:
I'll cherish you, I promise.
Happy belated birthday.

#lovefio
Dearest (:

2008-06-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

Some jokes.
So true lah.

WIFE VS. HUSBAND

A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word.
An earlier discussion had led to an argument andneither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, 'Relatives of yours?'
'Yep,' the wife replied, 'in-laws.'

W O R D S

A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day...
30,000 to a man's 15,000.
The wife replied, 'The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...
The husband then turned to his wife and asked, 'What?'

CREATION

A man said to his wife one day, 'I don't know how youcan be sostupidandso beautiful all at the same time.' The wife responded, 'Allow me to explain. God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me;
God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!'

The Silent Treatment

A man and his wife were having someproblems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, 'Please wake me at 5:00 AM.' He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, 'It is 5:00 AM. Wake up.'
Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

#lovefio
Men & Women.

2008-06-17T22:51:00.000-07:00

The world is changing. It's such a pity.
Or maybe, nothing changes for some people.

Some people who thinks so highly of themselves.
Some people who has no shame.
Some people who thinks that apparently everyone is on their side.
Some people who treats friends the worst.
Some people who knows how they are treating their friends and still continues doing it.
Some people who loves the art of bad mouthing others,
(sadly, that includes bad mouthing their (close) friends too)
And has already mastered the art in doing so.
Some people who thinks and acts as if they are rich, but pathetically, they're not.
Some people who dreams about all male species falling to their feet,
And can continue dreaming about it for as long as they like.
Because miserably, their "happiness" is only a temporary kinda thing.
It's a bigger pity for them.

I'm talking about You. You can't run away from it. It's a good thing now I know what kind of a person you really are. I can stop wasting my precious time on you and your pathetic life. Thank God.

Oh yea, I don't think that there are jobs which pay you for showing off your fucking attitude, is there?
So stop it. It's annoying.

Oh yea yea, may Karma bless you (:

#lovefio
Pathetically friendless creature, YOU.

2008-06-17T11:26:00.000-07:00

I know, I haven't updated and I've been nagged about it all these while. So here I am, again (:
Don't nag anymore!

Caught Congkak. A malay horror movie with English and Chinese subtitles. Damn good. I swear that old lady was so fugly.

Hol's over. Two pathetically short weeks and I'm back in school.
Again.
Damn.

The IT show was horrible. And I mean HORRIBLE. Horribly horrible. It was so fucking packed and stuffy and shit. I'm not going to work in another IT show ever again, I swear.

But at least I made some money (:
I'M RICH!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Bit by bit, we're catching up.
We are, aren't we? Well, hopefully, at least.

But how long can this last?
What would happen when all repeats again?
Can I bear the pain? Can you hurt me even more?
Can anyone of us assure that none of these would happen again?

I can't bear anymore of this pain.
Not for another time.

So please, please think of everything you can before hurting me again.
It's not a small cut. A fucking slash on the face cannot even be compared to it.
It is what that made me feel so lost, so empty..

#lovefio
(:

2008-05-22T13:01:00.000-07:00

Went over to Malaysia during the short holiday for Wei-Ge's wedding. Gosh, his wife was gorgeous yesterday when we saw her in her wedding gown. I'm sure little Wei-Ge will come out just as charming (:

I'll upload all the pics when I have nothing better to do.

Just some jokes to destress (:
Enjoy!

Smart man + smart woman = romance

Smart man + dumb woman = affair

Dumb man + smart woman = marriage

Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
____________ _________ _________

OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit

Smart boss + dumb employee = production

Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion

Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
____________ _________ ________

SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs

A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.

____________ _________ ________

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
____________ _________ ________

HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.

To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
____________ _________ _________

LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

____________ _________ _________

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
____________ _________ ________

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

____________ _________ ________

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.' They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

#lovefio
I need a break.

2008-05-13T13:42:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

#lovefio
I wanted you.

2008-05-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

True love.
Indeed.

What you'd done is unforgivable.
I wouldn't have to care about what you think or feel anymore.
Thank God for me.
I hadn't been myself for the past ten months.
I'm not giving in this time.

I wanna see sincerity before you ask me back.

#lovefio
I love my friends (:

2008-05-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

It's true when they say things like "You should be contented with what you have. Not everyone can find true love."
But they don't know how it feels like when you keep giving and have nothing in return.

And then some people would be saying "When you love a person, give and don't expect anything in return."
All I can say to that is "Fuck you."

You weren't there. Not at all. When I need a shoulder to lean on, a body to hug. You don't know how it feels like being me. You said that you appreciate the things that I've done, the sacrifices I'd made, but you don't know exactly what I'd done and what the sacrifices are.
And it hurts when you said that you understand me.
Cos' you don't.

I can't feel it. I can't feel the love you said. I can't feel the care that you claimed you'd shown. I can't feel it all. I don't even remember our last date. It seemed so long ago.

You asked me to wait a little longer for you to have time for me. That's what I had been doing all along. To wait and wait and wait.. Yet it's just disappointments after disappointments. I'm not complaining. It's what I tell you everytime we quarrel. It's a sad thing I have to bring this up again and again. Nothing just goes through that head of yours.

I'm not asking for branded. I'm not asking for diamonds and pearls. I'm not even asking for a nice dress which I laid my eyes on for so long. I'm just asking for a little of your precious time. Is that too much that I'm asking for?

And I can't even get angry everytime you pushed back your time with me just for your friends? Or when you had stupid excuses like you're tired when I'm the one who goes over to find you and walk home everytime I do in the middle of the night freaking myself out? I'm never your first priority, never once. There will always be something which is more important than me. Including your beauty sleep.
I have my limits too.

Where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you.
Like you don't appreciate all that I do.
You gotta show me that you want me to stay.

Don't let your pride get in.
The way, for something we worked so hard.
Just don't throw it away.
I'd been trying to make you see that everything
You need is right here with me.

But I can't see what I need there with you.

Sometimes I feel better when I am alone.
I keeping myself hanging on that string. I don't wanna fall.
Cos' if I do, this relationship would go down too.
But why am I the only one struggling hard?
I don't see you here with me.
I don't like this. Not at all.

I'm tired.
Physically and emotionally.

You were never,
never here.

#lovefio
Shut up.

2008-05-11T01:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day to Mummy.
Happy Mother's Day to Baby's mom.
Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in the world.
Happy Mother's Day to all who are becoming mothers too.
And Happy Mother's Day to...
Never mind.

This Mother's Day didn't turn out like how I predicted it'll be a few months back. But.. it's okay.

Sakae Sushi at White Sands with mom, Zac and my cousin. Gave mom a hundred bucks to spend cos' I couldn't think of anything to buy. She'll complain if I were to buy anything too expensive or if I get her something she already has. So, money would be the most practical of all.
Hope Mummy enjoyed today (:

#lovefio
Happy Mother's Day.

2008-05-07T19:28:00.000-07:00

Who would know.. exactly how I feel.

I'm quite sure you wouldn't.

#lovefio
Ah fuck.

2008-05-05T21:40:00.000-07:00

I love you, Love (:

Let's hold on tight, together.
You know I need you in my life.

#lovefio
It's just my Baby and I (:

2008-04-30T23:32:00.000-07:00

I'm hooked on ebay. Blame it on Siti. She introduced me to shop online at ebay a few days ago and I've bought two Victoria's Secret bags, a Victoria's Secret pouch and three Victoria's Secret hand & body lotions so far. I'm investing so much on online shopping lah!

Of course I know there's such a thing as ebay but never had I once tried to shop online. It's the lack of trust with these sellers. Heh.

Things aren't going my way. Is it me, or.. Is it me?
Tell me it's just me.

Don't let history repeat itself. I'm sick of it.
Neither can I handle the pain again.

Not even online shopping can make me happy now. Bye, people. I'm off to bed.

#lovefio
More Victoria's Secret, please?

2008-04-29T16:09:00.000-07:00

Happy 10th Month, Baby (:
You make my days filled with so much love.

#lovefio
(: (: (:

2008-04-21T09:31:00.000-07:00

Criedits to Germain (:

Less than a week to tiny Cherie's 18th birthday. Going out with her and hopefully getting what I intend to get :D

Oh yeah, Baby's back from Thailand at last! Received his call on my way to work and was very surprised indeed. Well of course, happy too (:
Even the pathetic sales figure on the sales record book didn't bring my spirits down. Rather, I was damn happy by the end of the day and went back hurriedly to meet Baby at his place.

Hugged him like I've never hugged before. I missed him so much I felt like crying the moment I saw him. Honestly, it wasn't easy, these past two weeks.

#lovefio
I love you, Darling!

2008-04-18T12:15:00.000-07:00

Thailand's airport fucking sucks lah.
Baby texted me 2 a.m. last night saying he missed his flight back to Singapore because of the fucking checkpoint counter. They delayed the whole timing and Baby and his friends couldn't go on board until the plane took off.
Like how dumb can these people get?!

And they didn't do anything to help Baby and his friends. Inefficient shitheads. The government should really wake up and do something about the airport before Osama and his people start changing their minds and start bombing Thailand instead. I don't care if that asswipe is dead or not lah, just BOMB!

I seriously don't understand since Thailand's got the money to build those massage parlors, brothels and prostitutes/whores infested hotels, why can't they spend a little of these ridiculously spent money on changing the country's image from a third world country to a better one or just introduce BETTER CUSTOMER SERVICE. But not in the wrong way.
URGH!

Now Baby has to book the next flight back to Singapore and there's no idea when would that be. With such an airport, he may be stuck there for another year. I wouldn't be surprised.

I'm missing Baby like helllllll! I need a hug from him soon, real soon.
And I wanna see him now. I was supposed to meet him tonight but because of this bloody delay, my Friday's mood's gone.

What a killjoy.

#lovefio
Fuck.

2008-04-17T08:26:00.000-07:00

Some jokes to start your day before you tolerate my ranting later on :D

Teacher: Ah Kau, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how
much would your father still have?
Ah Kau: $10.
Teacher: You don't know Maths.
Ah Kau: You don't know my father!

Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum.
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: But, but, but.... I will only get my report card tomorrow??
Mother: I know that, but I'm going Hong Kong tomorrow so I'm scolding you now.

Father: Why did you fail your Mathematics Test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3 + 5 = 8
Father: So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4 + 4 = 8.
On Wednesday, she said 6 + 2 = 8.
If she can't make up her mind, how I know the right answer???

Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear.
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No lah, mine is undying love!!!

Man: How old is your father?
Boy: Same as me.
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He only became a father when I was born!!!

Teacher: Simon, your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
Simon: No lah, teacher. It's the same dog!

Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!
Son: That's why I tell you she's no good!

Teacher: Where were you born?
Student: Singapore , Sir.
Teacher: Which part?
Student: All of me.

Baby's coming back TODAY!
Finally!

But I can only meet him tomorrow. Mm, it wouldn't hurt to wait another day (: I've waited for ten days already anyways.

And pay-day's TODAY too! Come, money, COME! :D

Hopefully, today's gonna turn out alright.
Mm, wait. Hopefully, everyday's gonna turn out good :D

#lovefio
Come, love.

2008-04-17T08:03:00.000-07:00

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions ; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Yes, so true, ain't it?

#lovefio
Live it.

2008-04-15T09:23:00.000-07:00

Very meaningful (:
Enjoy.

Work after school today. Damn. And I'm being forced to go to work. Urgh..

Finally it's Wednesday again tomorrow - no school! :D
Heading to town with Cherie (yes, like finally, too) and there's lotsa shopping to do!
No, I don't do camwhoring. Not those THOUSAND OVER PICTURES kinds, at least.

Baby's coming back in TWO days!
I can't believe I managed to stay alive till now.
But I'm still waiting for Baby's call/message ):
Call/text me soon, Baby! I miss you SO much...

#lovefio
Two more days...

2008-04-14T09:01:00.000-07:00

Dammit. I'm down with food poisoning/stomach flu since Thursday. It got so bad that I even had problems standing. And got really hungry after heading to the toilet for like a zillion times. Good thing Ryan was there to help, and thanks for the waffles, buddy (:

Thought that I might be able to sleep it through. It helped, at first. Then it got worse. Mom dragged me to see the doctor, and for some reasons, I don't really fancy them, that explains the reluctance.

Mm, Baby isn't back yet. Or I'll be complaining on and on and on and on to him about how much I hate doctors and medicine and this terrible feeling that is going on in my tummy.

So, didn't attend school on Friday and spent the whole day at home. Wasted, yes. And I'm getting really tired of work already. Taka isn't having much sales and so I'm not earning a lot either. Damn.

I'm dead early in school today due to the bloody overwhelming response going on with bus 168. Just to get onto that bus, I'm made to wake up at 6 a.m. and reach school by 7.30 a.m. When school starts at 8.30 a.m.! And we cannot be late or our grades would be deducted. Like WTF?!

Baby called yesterday. Was so happy when I got his call.
Three more days till he comes back from Thailand.
I can't wait, I can't wait!!! :D

#lovefio
Three more days...

2008-04-09T17:52:00.000-07:00

Bloggerrrr suckkkkkks.
Bloody RP connection.
Yes, they're all affecting my mood today - big time.

Late for school, again. What is so bloody hell wrong with the stupid bus service thingy? Why can't they have more 168 buses to let everyone fit in nicely? Why do we have to squeeeeeeze every morning like some fucking smelly sardins? And still end up late for school no matter how early we wake up. What the fuccccck... -.-

Oh, I'm complaining like a bitch, yes. Cos' school is once again getting on my nerves. Ah damn.
And I am so glad that I didn't spent a cent on cabs today - it's just not worth it!

Well, a good thing for us Year Twos is that we needn't come to school on Wednesdays. Means school is only 4 days a week! :D How cool is that? Hee.

K-ed with Suku, Conan and Renda yesterday. Finally we meet up again. I was missing her so much, cos' she's always busy with tuition, her pups and Conan. Lotsa catching up to do, and soon! Ok, babe? :D

Was damn happy with Baby messaged me from Thailand. But the reception sucked, so some messages were delayed. Nevertheless, I'm missing you, Baby!

I still have to wait another seven more days before Baby comes back. And time is crrrawlinggg so slooooowly. Well, at least he's having fun and relaxing there. I wanna go to Thailand too!

I want you back in my arms, Baby!
I hope you were by my side now..

#lovefio
Seven more days...

2008-04-07T13:25:00.000-07:00

A new semester, damn.
The new class' not bad, E66H. Many can speak pretty well while I kept st-st-stuttering. Not a good sign for today's module is Effective Presentation Skills.

Reached school darn early today cos' Miss Esther Chia was complaining that her feet were too painful to move, so we cabbed down to RP. Her treat, so why not? Hehe :D

Didn't get much sleep last night. Baby's off to Thailand again early this morning so I stayed till quite late to keep him accompany. He's off for TEN days. OMG, kill me. It's a bloody torture, and one day's not even over! Damn, damn, damn.

Awwww, and I'm missing Baby so much already. TEN DAYS!
URGH!

#lovefio
TEN DAYS!

2008-03-29T01:36:00.000-07:00

Gahhhh.. Work, work and more work. My feet are tearing apart. Yes, it's that bad, but at least I'm making money :D Hee.

School's around the corner. No, I don't wanna go back to study. It's a miracle that I actually made it to Year Two despite me skipping almost half of the lessons for every module. So, I've decided to put in more effort this year round in order to catch up. But then, mm.. First thing that has to go is this laziness in me.

Right, finally it's off-day today and I can rotttttt with Dorina. Perhaps a pedicure? Mm.. Haven't made up my mind yet. Invested quite a bit on three pairs of colour contact lenses (brown, grey and green) and I know I really shouldn't spend more money on such ridiculous stuffs.

Baby's off-day's on Sunday. Going to one of his cousin's wedding dinner and I haven't decided on my outfit. Damn...
But honestly, I'm pretty excited (: Hee~

Oh btw,
It's 9 months and counting (:
Stay with me till my very last breath.

#lovefio
Go on and on and on and on...

2008-03-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

Love is a wonderful thing - it is, when everything is right.

All the love shared between two persons; the sweet-talks and hugs&kisses; you comb his hair while he brushes your teeth, even the slightest peck on the forehead means a lot. You do everything together, and are inseperatable by the hips.

Everything in this world doesn't matter anymore, what matters is that you stay together through every thunderstorm, and believe that this love made would not go.

But when Love turns itself into Hatred, look at the damage caused. Who's going to take responsibility? And who's going to mend all the broken hearts? Who would be able to pay the price for all the shattering?

No one.

Why the sudden change of hearts? Why the appearance of so many other characters into this lovey-dovey story? Didn't all of us think that love is about just the two people involved? How did things get mixed up like that, and so rapidly? What happened to 'Forever'? Did it ever exist before?

Feelings, it's a scary thing. Something so complicated, that even we couldn't understand it completely. Why do we feel this way, and that? Why do we feel that we need this person so much in our lives this minute and we can say that we don't love them the next? So many questions, yet who actually has the answers?

When love takes its departure slowly, it doesn't only hurt the person being left behind. It hurts the people who really love and care for him/her too. Deep, deep wounds. Scars that would be there forever, no matter how hard one tries to forget. In fact, the more you try forgetting, the more painful it is.

So many hearts have been brokened, I can't bear to see another one being shattered.
HM, stand on your two feet and be strong. He doesn't know just what he'd missed.
We love you lah. (:
And how we want that crazy HM back. We're all here.

Cherish the ones you love - it's an old phrase that repeated over and over again.
But somehow, it just seems to make more sense now.

#lovefio
True love.

2008-03-12T00:55:00.000-07:00

Pics on ice-skating!
Enjoy, people.

Next outing would be planned soon (: Hee.
And I can ice skate, alright. Don't look down on me.
Though I fell on my butt once. But just ONCE! :D

#lovefio
Ice skating fun.

2008-03-11T22:04:00.000-07:00

The IT Show at Suntec was damn packed. Those of you who went there should know.

Our job was pretty simple there. Just giving out of some stupid flyers and some ridiculous CDs. Conan, Renda and I got so bored that we spent the remaining of our time slacking at Starbucks after we were done with our jobs. And I meant more than half of our working time was spent slacking around.

I'm so gladd this bloody fair's finally over. No way can I stand more of this boredom there.

Finally, Baby's taking off tomorrow. Finally, we're going out again (: YAY!
And I've finally convinced Baby to get a puppy and he has finally agreed to it. Mom doesn't like animals, so I didn't have the chance to take care of any since young (except a couple of tortoises, that is). We might be getting either a Shihtzu or a Schnauzer, soon, hopefully. Hee.

I'm so looking forward to it :D

#lovefio
Mango Pudding~

2008-03-05T20:54:00.000-08:00

I'll be working at Suntec City Convention Hall Level 6 tomorrow! Hee. Finally, a job.
Will be working with Conan and Renda :D
Yay, at least I won't be lonely.

Went ice skating and karaoke with SmallJon, HM, Cherie, Denver, YiKai, SuPing and ChenChuan yesterday. Yes, I fell, on my butt. But I pulled Cherie along with me. Hee.

Meeting Baby later. Mm.. I miss him so much.

#lovefio
I love Stupid Boy (:

2008-02-29T12:58:00.000-08:00

Happy 8th Month, Baby.
(:

Meeting HM at TM later.
Cheer up, girl. These things will go, be strong.

And oh, Happy belated birthday, Daddy.
I love you.

#lovefio
Love.

2008-02-15T15:41:00.000-08:00

Been dead busy recently. So little time for almost anything.
Damn.

Had a great CNY this year. Went to the church then to grandma's place. Then, met Baby and his family to visit his dad's side of the family, and then to his mom's side of the family.

Baby and his family.

Yes, many many red packets came rolling in. Hee. Baby's cousins then planned to catch a movie as it wasn't easy for all of them to finally get together as a whole. Hence, we went out as a big group to catch Ah Long Pte Ltd - Two of Baby's cousins and their boyfriends, Baby's mom, two of Baby's younger cousins (they're extremely cute, I swear), Shermine, Baby and I.

After the show, Baby met up with his friends and we headed to Bedok Interchange. His friends wanted to watch Kungfu Dunk (which I wouldn't pay that kind of money to watch - I've never liked Jay Chou) but Baby and I had enough movies for the day. So we ate and went back home.

It's been a long time since Baby and I actually spent a whole day together. And I bloody hell enjoyed this day! :D

The next day, couldn't join Baby and his family for steamboat at his place cos' dad wanted to bring us to JB. So met Baby at night for dinner instead (steamboat too). Hee.

This is the best thing I like about CNYs - tons of abalone and shark's fin :D

The next few days is shopping for HM and I. Yes, finally! Got myself two Bebe tops, a top from Hypnosis, a jacket from Zara, my Havaianas and La Coste polo tee for Baby (navy blue). It's the last day of the promotions for La Coste :D Couldn't resist the temptation to buy it, you see. Heh.

Valentine's Day - where the streets are filled with love, love and more love.
Waited for Baby to end work. Went to TM to get his gift and bumped into WeiQi and her younger sister. Tagged along with them while they went searching for food. Trust me, they're some very troublesome people when it comes to finding food. Heh.

Passed by so many couples holding hands and girls hugging bouquets of flowers in their arms. Not the slightest feeling of being "alone", because I know my love's somewhere very close to me and I'll be seeing him later. Perhaps that's the best Valentine's gift ever (:

Met Suku and Conan for a short while after WeiQi left and then headed to Suntec City to look for Baby. All the restuarants were closed by the time Baby ends work, but we still managed to find a place to dine after walking round and round esplanade. Lucky for us, Cafe Cartel's last order ends at 11 p.m.

Not a very fanciful Valentine's Day this year, but I'm really happy. It's not every Valentine's Day that I feel how I'm feeling now.
I'm glad it's you I'm spending Valentine's Day with this year.
And I hope that it'll still be you for the rest of my Valentine's Days.

#lovefio
Love, love people.

2008-01-31T23:33:00.000-08:00

The interview went quite smoothly, though I was stuttering while answering the questions. Was lucky to have some really nice interviewers too. Walked out of the room thinking that I would most probably not get the job.

However, I managed to get it somehow. And damn, I was chosen to work at the skincare products station instead of the fragrance station. Pay's increased by a dollar to $6/hr. Not a bad news at all, but hey, are they like blind or what? Me? Skincare products? I can't even take care of my own skin! -.-

But still, I'm employed :D Yay.

So many things on my shopping list. So little money. And so little time to save money.
Damn.

One more day to the start of my 10 weeks hols! Man, how long we'd waited. Another week to CNY! Money, money roll in! :D

#lovefio
Hired, finally (:

2008-01-30T21:55:00.000-08:00

Got this from CLEO.
Enjoy.

9 THINGS NOT WORTH RISKING YOUR RELATIONSHIP FOR:

1. An affair -
Women cheat, often rationalising their actions by blaming an inattentive partner. Men cheat, often rationalising their actinoas by simply being presented with the chance to sleep with someone new. Either way, even if the strayer can be assured that their infidelity will never be discovered, an important shift takes place in the dynamic of the relationship. A sacred bond has been broken and even if you think you can masquerade that everything is as it was, your man will know something is up. Just as you would if he were sleeping around.

The alternative, of course, is coming clean. While your honesty is commendable, it will result in cast amounts of wounded pride, a sense of trust that will never be completely rebuilt and - somewhere deep in the male brain - the notion that if he too cheated, you'd owe him the chance he's giving you. Not a good combination. At all.

2. A threesome -
No matter how much he begs you or how intrigued you are, a threesome is not going to make your relationship stronger. Sure, the erotic novelty of a trio may be enticing but it's an escapade best left to the single. Why? Because sex between two people who love one another is more than just getting your rocks off. There's also a level of emotional connection at play - which is put on hold when a third party climbs into bed. Why, you think, would he need another woman in bed with him when you're already there, you may wonder in the post-coital funk. He may ask a similar question if the roles were switched. It's natural to wonder why you alone are not enough for your partner and this thought is the baton twirler at the head of a whole marching band of insecurity.

3. Your jobs -
At different times in our lives, we have different priorities. When career success - with its long hours and perhaps business travel - is top on the agenda, relationships invariably suffer. And all those "I'm working to make a great life for us" justifications seem hollow when all you want is to be with the one you love. It's not that you can't have a relationship and a career. Rather, it's about finding someone whose agenda matches yours. But no one wants to feel like their partner is more loyal to a company than to them. Your boss will only love you when you're contributing to his bonus but your partner will love you regardless. Remember this before your loved one starts to feel as if they're being made redundant.

4. Cyber-snooping -
This faux pas is the equivalent of an artificial respirator for a dying relationship. Why would you take it upon yourself to snoop through his email or SMS inbox? The curiosity is understandablebut taking it further broadcasts the assumption that he has something to hide. Not exactly a basis for happily ever after. No matter how stealthy you think you are, one day you will be caught. And until then, you might even start creating elaborate suspicions about genuinely innocuous messages and wondering who "Lisa" is. Eventually, your prying nature will get the better of you and you'll ask. To which he'll reply, "My cousin who's visiting from Sabah and wanted hotel recommendations." By then, of course, it's too late. Your true nature has been revealed and he's not sure whether he likes what he sees.

5. The mad rush -
Once in a relationship, it's only natural that you'll want to establish whether you and your partner have similar long-term goals. Who wants to spend years with someone only to be told "Actually, I never want to get married" or "Kids? I don't think so". But acquiring this information shouldn't come at the expense of the here and now. Give it a year to get to know each other on an increasingly deeper level and enjoy all the fun stuff that comes early-on. Demanding a five-year plan at any time within this period will have him feeling rushed and wondering if you're worith it. But if you don't know whether your long-term visions coincide after four seasons, you're perfectly entitled to ask where he sees this going.

6. His private fantasies -
Men realise that our fantasies are often disgusting and depraved. That's why we're so reticent to share them with you. We're hesitant that the entire content of our character will be judged according to this one part of our brains. We know that once we reluctantly condess a scenario involving you in a Wonderwoman outfit and beads that weren't designed to be worn around the neck, you will recoil in horror. Then judge the entire conent of our character accordingly. If you open the door, be prepared for what is going to step through it. Otherwise, he may feel betrayed by your response. He shared something deeply private and now feels he has sunk in your estimation for doing so. Doesn't exactly bode well for future honesty and revelations.

7. Wanting to be together 24/7 -
Here's a word no one in a relatinoship likes to hear: Seperation. Yet it's precisely this concept that strengthens many a long-term liaison. Relax. Talking hours here, not months. As long as most of your time is still spent together, these periods of independence spent on individual pursuits allow both parties to bring new ideas and energy back to the relationship. It also gives you a chance to miss omseone, a process that often serves as a timely reminder about why you fell in love with them in the first place. Deny him those solo sojourns and he'll quickly feel suffocated. And we all know that suffocation quickly leads to that most lame of all male break-up lines, the need for "space".

8. Not allowing him a past -
Newsflash: He had a life before you camt onto the scene. Deny it all you will but there were other women he loved - and restricting his access to them will only shotern your relationship. If he's honest with you about still being friends with these women, he should score more points - not less - in your book. It shows that although these relationships ended, the demise was handled in a civilised enough manner that he and his ex can still be part of one another's lives. Should you find out that he has spent time with an ex, it's still no reason to bust his chops, as he was probably afraid you were going to react the way you are right now. The solution here is saying that you'd prefer it if he were honest in future. As opposed to asking him to never have contact with her again. Unless he has given you previous indication that he might be unfaithful, simply chatting with his ex doesn't mean he wants to be back with her or even have sex for old time's sake. As with the concept of legal justice, men are innocent until proven guilty. Not the other way round.

9. His friends -
Nothing sucks the life out of a relationship like a partner who feels she has the right to criticise your mates. Ad nauseum. They may not be the most hygenic or well-mannered bunch of lads but they have stuck with him through some hard times and why should he have to justify his friendships to you anyway? This works both ways and he is similarly forbidden from laying into your mates. Should this prove a flashpoint, agree to disagree, make these conversations a nogo and allow him to get his belching fix on boys nights out. He'll relish the freedom and cherish you all the more for it.

Eh...... Only some makes sense. Heh.

#lovefio
Goodness.

2008-01-30T14:31:00.000-08:00

Hol's coming. I'm still jobless. Darn.

Going to Tampines CPF Building for some interview tomorrow. I hope I get the bloody job, though it's only for a week. Heh.

Chinese New Year's coming too. Need new dresses, new heels, new lingeries, new everything. Haven't planned my new year look though. What kind of hairstyle? What colour nails? Urgh, so many things to consider - money wise.

Not fair. The other classes are either dismissed early or being treated to big, yummy pizzas. What happened to our facilitators?? Where's OUR pizza?!?!

#lovefio
Damned.

2008-01-29T10:48:00.000-08:00

Went to find HM at TM Watson's (she's working there) on Sunday. She quitted her job half way due to her very uncomfortable eyes and the freaking unreasonable manager.

Long John and then to Toy 'R' Us. Childish, as you might think. It's just to kill time, really.

I want him!
Pony! Pony!

Slacked around at Century Square toilet aftermath. Too bad la, boredom.

Then, HM started playing with my hair.

Last week of school!
I hope I get a well paid job soon (:

And oh,
Happy 7th Month, Baby.
I love you.
Always do, always will.

#lovefio
$$$

2008-01-23T15:22:00.000-08:00

You don't know how it feels.

I want you to burn.
I want you to steal.
I want you to bleed,
And see how it feels.

I want you to beg,
I want you to crawl.
Give more than you take,
And smile through it all.

I've given everything, I loved you endlessly,
but when it comes to me you don't even notice me.

"Forget it, Fiona", I'm telling myself.
But I know I can never forget it.

You hurt me more than you thought you did.
Tell me how to forgive you.
Cooling down isn't going to help.
You ruined it all yourself.

And I'm dying from a fatal illness called
HEARTBREAK.

Like I said, you'll never know.

I can just stop doing this to myself now.
It's just not fair.
I'm not taking revenge, it makes no difference even if I do.
But try putting yourself in my shoe,
& you'll know how much you just hurt me.
I'd given more than what I gave anyone,
But I guess it's all back to square one.

Remember this -
You ruined it all.

There's nothing more that I can do.
I did the best I can.
Guess I wasn't good enough for you.
And whatever I did is just a waste of time.

My friends tell me to give it up,
You're not worthy of my time.
And that you cannot give me the future I deserve.
I never wanna listen to them,
Until today, I finally see the truth.

Then again,
You ruined it all.

Try gaining back that 'trust' from me again.
I doubt you'd be able to do so.
We'd been through this so many times,
I have my weak moments too.
Tell me, since when have you been here?
Truth is, you were never here.

It wasn't easy for me to love again.
Then, you came and ruin it all.

Are you going to be here now that I'm hurt so bad?
Would you still see the same in me?
It wouldn't be easy to trust you again,
But I promise I'll try my best.

#lovefio
Liars.